Praying, but not the results you’re looking for.

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Life got rough for a few minutes and it got rougher. I cried about something I prayed for a certain outcome and didn’t get. I felt like I wasn’t being understood. Like I hadn’t found the right words to convey the important information in the situation. I wondered what the point of praying was if I didn’t get what I sought. I was angry at God for a time. That has happened several times over the years.

I sit here, still not have gotten what I prayed about. It’s currently an ongoing situation though and the possibility is still valid. I am not sure how I feel about that. Well, I feel tired by it. For the situations in my life that have gone on and on, I feel tired by them. I am not sure if I am praying the right way or if I should be okay with how things are in these multiple situations and trust there’s a deeper meaning for change not happening in “uplevel” ways.

After that life upset, other things happened and there were rough waters still. However, the signs got clear again recently and I no longer feel in a fog. I still feel clueless in some ways, but the signs remind me I am being looked after.

I’ve said before…there are signs…they do happen…not in every moment of every day…but they’re there…the theory is to see the sign…walk forward…trusting…being clear…and knowing you’re looked after…always.

Hiatus

Hello, I know this is a new blog and one I enjoy writing and reflecting with you. I am currently working through some things in my life and it’s gotten a little tough again. I am starting to feel the stress in my body and that’s something I haven’t felt to this degree before.

I will be taking time to reflect, think, and see what develops for me. May you always know you’re worthy…no matter how big your storm.

Pray for Another, Pray for their Joy

I read the other day that it’s a good idea to pray for someone else for 30 days. I imagine I’d read it before, but this time it stuck in my head as something to actually do.

So, I’ve picked two people, not told anyone who they are, and am praying for them. I am praying for Joy in their lives. I believe there must be lots that will be shifted to better if Joy were present in their lives. I believe the vibe raising to the feeling of Joy is an elevation that is really powerful and really high on that “vibe-o-meter” of feelings.

I’ve only begun this experiment, so I don’t know how it will go. I may very well make this a continual part of my routine, focused elevating prayer. I may also pray for other people I don’t know. I’ve done that before. I’ve had people ask me to pray for them because they felt God listened to me more than them. Maybe their own relationship with God was precarious? Maybe they weren’t taught the relationship can be something deeper? Maybe, as in my situation, one lady in particular just felt like God was listening to me because I was always talking about God taking care of my life.

I am happy to pray for people. I am happy when I send out the Handwritten Hugs. I am trusting of God. I love sharing in a conversation about a one-on-one with God. God’s put me in that spot before and it is literally profound…like a host of angels stopped in to bear witness as a little extra vibe alive in that moment. Definitely.

In this post, I’d like to encourage you to pray for someone for 30 days. It can be simple, like, “Dear God, I am praying for so-and-so. I pray for Joy in their lives.” That’s it. That’s as simple as I am doing too. You can pray for healing, peace, improved relationships, etc. Mostly, I’d encourage praying for Joy. Joy encompasses so much good…I like all that it covers. If you’re new to praying with personal interaction intent, this is the perfect opportunity to grow your faith.

Steps forward, real, not real

Sometimes we want to move forward so much, we push for whatever it is we are aiming for. There’s a big difference between stepping outside of one’s comfort zone and then purposefully pushing to something that isn’t going to go anywhere.

You ask, “Okay April, how do we know the difference?” Well, some things you just have to try to see if they’ll work, to say you are willing to grow, and see what becomes of them. Maybe nothing, maybe something, but definitely give it potential.

Then, maybe there’s a step you’re considering taking, but there’s clearly something going on in your life that isn’t allowing for that step. For instance, maybe you’ve got a prior commitment going on and you can’t take a forward step with ease because you’ve committed to something else important. Now’s the time to trust that there’s a flow and order to your life and taking the next step isn’t quite right at this moment.

I know, for me, sometimes I’m willing to take a step forward and something stops me, literally. My truck has broken down just about every time I’ve decided to take action in this one particular area. It’s not anything major, but definitely something not allowing me to move forward with.

So, being braver and stepping outside of one’s comfort zone is an urge, a feeling, the ability to act bolder than anything before. Maybe you really do want that particular job, maybe you do need to start creating that idea you could sell, maybe you can trust that your speaking and encouraging talents are all that’s needed to get you going on the track you’ve been desiring.

I hope this helps you in making choices and finding your direction. Mostly, this asks you to feel what’s inside of you, what’s guiding you, what it is you truly desire. Therein is where you’ll find the clarity in your answers.

Holiday Sale ~

On my personal page I’ve discounted my Handwritten Hugs from $15 to $10 for the holiday weekend. I felt I could do it here also. So, here in this post is a discount offer for the weekend. The Hugs are handwritten intuitive letters of comfort. Sometimes they’re on a specific topic and that’s completely okay if that’s the situation. Most of the time, they’re writings of what I intuitively feel led to write for the recipient. In just about every letter I write, the words are like magic…touching the soul of the person and filling them with comfort. Some of these letters are treasured for years. I’ve had people contact me to say how their letter came to them at a moment of really feeling chaos and lack. I consider that letter a ray of light that arrives right when it should. This is the gift I am always amazed by. I write, people feel healed or relief for a moment. It’s beyond words.

I’d also like to give a discount for my email correspondence conversations. They are normally $60 for 7 emails. For this weekend, I’ll discount them to $45 for 7 emails. The conversations can be anything from building personal faith stronger, to helping shift your perspective in life from stuck to forward, to helping you understand your psychic gifts. They can even be simple friendship conversations about great dessert recipes or something else about life that’s been unsettling you.

This discount, from 5/24 to 5/26 in 2019.

In all ways, in all days, I hope you find what you’re looking for. Peace and Rainbows.

Blessings, God Moments, Intuition

Many times I suggest taking the time to journal one’s life. I do try it myself from time to time, but that’s not really my best talent. When I have taken the time to write things down and looked back on it later, I marvel at what I’ve written. Either the words are beautiful…amazing myself. Or they remind me of some things I need refreshed memory on…like a blessing or something I worked through.

A beautiful thought just came to mind…call it God, the Angels, Intuition, whatever you feel your connection to Source is…and it’s an idea I can work with. Instead of a journal I don’t ever really fill, how about a beautiful box to use as a “keeper of blessings, prayers, requests”? I always have paper of some sort here. I can easily write down a blessing/prayer/request and put that paper in the box. From time to time, I can then pull out one or two or all of them to see how my life has happened, maybe even update the prayers and requests papers too. This idea fits me and I thank whomever in Spirit helped me with it in this moment. Thank you.

My reasoning for writing it down is to make a record of your life…look back to see what you’ve gotten past that you maybe thought you never would. To see a blessing and remember how that unfolded for you.

I often look back at the meeting of my husband. I still, over 20 years later, consider that the most pivotal moment of my life. So many doors, so many possibilities, so much that I’ve created would not have been created without him specifically.

There are worlds and things I didn’t know I could do until he showed me and said it was okay to do them. That was a big thing for me. People long for permission from others, especially loved ones, to do their lives the way they want to do them. We are a validating society. We like having more than just us in our corner. Sometimes we won’t do the thing that calls to us because we’re the only one with that urge.

We see others telling us why we shouldn’t do it or telling us why we’re not brave enough…instead of looking ahead at the people out there seeking what we can provide. A new idea or urge within you is a seed…wanting to be planted…so that it can bloom for those ahead of you seeking you.

Do the brave thing. Imagine and Feel what it would feel like in a year of growth for that awesome thing. If that seems like too much, imagine the possibilities in awesome encounters going forward that will only happen because you took that route…class…job…creation…etc. Imagine Creation Forward.

Fill today with Confidence

How do you feel when you take actions, especially actions that you’re nervous about? For me, I usually get nervous, stay nervous, and don’t always think of what the best can be…even though I’m looking for something better in some way.

Today I took an action and thought about all the ways it could work for me. I felt, and still feel, the possibilities of what’s great and powerful and happening in awesome ways in my life because I took that step forward.

The feeling is satisfying and a much higher vibe going on. I’ll take it.

Look at something you’ve wanted to try or be brave for and see the good that can happen because of it. Write down how it feels. Take a moment to picture your day with the good unfolding in it. If it’s something you’d like to repeat, like a new venture or hobby, feel it in every day…something your whole life shifts so as to make this new great thing an essential part of your journey.

Your life was going along in some way…throughout the years something shifted it to include/remove a person or job or something else and things were shifting accordingly. Take a moment or two, in every day, to envision what you’d like to create in the next shift. Do it on purpose. Feel the shifts in your favor and walk in confidence, assured of it’s manifestation in your life.

Faith and Prayer

I sit here, wondering what to write to you this morning. Some days my faith shines brighter than others. Once in awhile, I pitch that faith right out of the door and get very angry at how things are developing…seeming to not be in the direction I prayed for. There are several things that haven’t developed to my liking at all actually. I know there’s divine timing, but enduring for a time sometimes drags out to what seems like forever.

Just last week something came into my life that has been on my “at some point it’ll happen” list. On the one hand, I was super grateful for it as it almost seemed like a divine gift. It’s presence reminded me we are in God’s care. On the other hand, that item also brought with it more responsibility. I struggled with that for a time too. I decided it was divine timing and am flowing with it. It is here. It has made some of us happy and actually has shaken up my routine in a way that’s a bonus.

I will admit, sometimes I cry at the things that I’ve prayed for that haven’t come to pass the way I want or something better. I don’t consider myself asking for much to begin with, a proper house we can afford and enjoy, a way to make money while staying home with my disabled husband and youngest as they both really need me at the present time.

Then sometimes, like last week, God sends something that’s been on the desire list. I have to remind myself that God is taking care and there is such a thing as divine timing.

At the end of the day, my faith is intact and trusting God works for me. Some storms are simply harder to weather. Some days faith shines brighter. It’s okay either way.

The Garden, Nature, Soul Medicine

People who have gardens and tend to gardens are much more grounded and probably healthier than the average person. Nature itself, one tree…a patch of grass…an ivy in a pot, are all ways to refresh us and keep us centered. There’s a real truth to “hug a tree”!

If you’re not a “dirt of nature” person or don’t have the space to grow anything, a suggestion would be to have pictures of flowers or artificial plants displayed. They aren’t quite the same caliber because they’re not alive, but they do provide some measure of benefit. If you could find a piece of art or group enough flowers with the whole rainbow on display, you would be providing visual vibe raisers and healing.

I know when I’m overwhelmed with thoughts of what I should do, what I could do, looking for possibilities to move forward, and feeling like I’m lost…when I walk around my yard or under my massive oak tree or look up at the sky, I get to feeling like I’ve given myself a “time out” from the chaotic thoughts of worry and fear. Nature allows the “resetting” of the mind so I can then hear God (Intuition, Universe, Etc.) better and listen to his guidance, care, and love.

A garden itself also allows us to see things we may have not noticed before. I’ve watched ants work their mound, coming and going, tending to their own basic needs. I’ve looked at a single blade of grass and marveled at it’s beauty. I’ve seen flowers growing in places where I didn’t plant them myself…those are always beautiful gifts.

Just two days ago I laid under one of my young trees in the yard. I even took a picture as it’s one of my favorite views. Looking up at the sky, especially under a protective tree, calms my soul so much. It’s soul medicine. A garden, a tree, a leaf…are all soul medicine.

I read just the other day about meditating for even a short a span as 10 minutes restoring us so much. I am trying to be mindful in that. 10 minutes…out of a whole day…is an amazing benefit. 10 minutes in a garden or visualizing nature would be like “superpower” meditating. That’s a possibility worth exploring.

I will do my best to make that happen in every day, 10 minutes, maybe several times a day. To give my soul some grounding, healing, and restoring.

under my young tree tagged

Ask for specifics, just like at the deli.

I am reading an interesting book and taking notes. The fact that I am taking notes means I am gaining from this book and enjoying what it has to say to me. One of the things it mentions is, be specific in what you’re asking for.

You can say, “God, I’d like a new house.” Okay…houses come in all shapes and sizes to fit various needs. Do you want that long, wide southern porch? Do you want a large yard or small one? Do you want a condo where someone else does the maintenance? Do you require a formal dining room or office?

What about a career? Do you want a full-time income or part-time? To work for yourself or someone else? To commune to work or take time during your day at home? Lots of things to consider.

A great analogy I’ve read several times is ordering at the deli. You’ve got to be specific in what you want from the deli. The person at the counter can’t take care of you if they don’t know what you want.

You know you want something in some way, so ask for it. If you’re worried about how it would come about, you can say something like, “I’d like….this….and would like to have it in the best possible divine way for all concerned.”

Try it. Pick one thing. Write it on your calendar. You can even pick something as simple as a snowball or an ice cream cone.