“What goes around, comes around.”

I was doing a small two color reading today and those words came to mind as part of it. As I typed those words, it came to mind that we’re usually telling others that. We usually say something like, “Well, what goes around comes around.”, when speaking about another person. What if those words also meant how we speak about ourselves and our own lives?

What if the notion of speaking of yourself in any way is how you are creating your life? I know I talk about these things, but what about this aspect? We sometimes think we’re not worthy, tell ourselves we messed up, or find some other excuse not to move forward with bravery for our desires/dreams/manifesting in our own lives or some other way of not speaking ourselves in a forward vibe.

Somehow this phrase struck me in a deep way about myself. I must really stop those moments when I think I’m not going to get anywhere in my life or those thoughts that I can’t find the right road or those thoughts that limit my own self by some appearance flaw or shortcoming like thinking my hearing impairment will be a factor in me not getting anywhere. Any of these thoughts…others of the same caliber…however you tell yourself is the reason for not getting forward.

What if you stopped saying that and started saying something different. What if you said, “God can show me how to make a difference in my life and others’ lives being as I am…flaws and all.” Or saying, “There is always potential in every day for opportunities and the upleveling of my life.” Or, “Everyone struggles with something. I won’t speak to myself of what troubles me, but rather to speak of the blessings and possibilities that are at hand at any given moment.”

On this whole planet of people, you’re unique in so many ways, it’s amazing! Own that! Shine in that! Cheers!!

Blessings come in many sizes

People pray for big solutions for their problems. I’m one of them. Some solutions happen bit-by-bit though, in small ways. Some solutions do happen in big moments and those are great of course. Even so, I don’t want you to miss out on any size blessing.

I need the remainder of my teeth pulled. It’s time and I was wondering when I was going to get brave enough to call somewhere. lol The other day I get a letter in the mail saying I can get services done at an office I used many years ago and actually like. It was just a random publicity letter from that company, but for me personally, it was a sign. I will call.

There were times we’d taken steps to renovate a house on this land. One blessing in the midst of that was flowers growing along a path in the yard where they had never grown before. It was just one year, but it happened right at the moment of that particular small change in that area of the property. I consider it a huge blessing and sign.

I have to get out of the house for some things, like many of us do, and am not always excited about it. I figure I’ll just go do it and come right back to my house sanctuary. While I am actually out and about, several times, I have come across some dear friend of mine. These are women who are always good for an uplifting word. It is a pleasure to see each of them and I hope the same of seeing me. This small coinciding of people may seem like a random thing, but I consider it a touch of blessing as each connecting moment raised my vibe and sometimes I needed my vibe raising.

A new person coming into your life who really gets you and speaks up on your behalf. I realized yesterday just how awesome this particular blessing is to me. I have long been considered the “odd sheep” who just doesn’t have my life together and is “doing it all wrong” per the family “requirements”. Maybe you’ve experienced this? Maybe you know someone else in your family who has experienced this? Maybe you simply understand? It is really nice to SEE this blessing that isn’t really mine in the sense that I’m not the reason she’s in the fold, but it’s nice to experience the ripple effect of this blessing I guess I can say, and have a cheerleader on my side within the family. Powerful. Awesome. A blessing indeed, many times over apparently.

What do you want for your life?

What do you want for your life? What is it that you feel you’re missing? Is it a job you’d be happy at? Is it a relationship that allows you to be yourself in? Is it an honest helping hand with your children? Is it to become famous in an international way? Is it to make just enough money to live a decent life?

We all seek many things. Some of us are happy and content with a daily routine of living. They find peace in the order of their day/week/year. Nothing makes them happier than to know tacos will always be on Tuesday.

Some of us seek more than that. What are we trying to gain? What is it that we think we lack? Do we think “if only” far too often than “I’m so blessed.” ?

I have been searching for just the right way to work for myself for years. I haven’t found it yet. Sometimes, I still keep searching though. I want to make a difference for people and have the flexibility for my children and husband.

If I’m honest with myself, I can say I’ve had that this past year or so. I was able to do what needed to be done, what I wanted to do, and enjoy it for the most part. I did that while working a full-time job.

So, did I get what I wanted? Did I “level up”? In some ways I did. In other ways I didn’t. What I know is that I’m still being true to what I believe about myself and my life through it all. That’s important no matter what.

Looking back now, I would have relaxed more…gone with the flow at opportunities that came my way…found ways to enjoy the moments more instead of getting stressed or looking hard for answers that weren’t ready to come.

Life’s complicated…and simple…all at the same time…..

Faith may get shaken

Some days…your faith will get shaken…keep working your way through that…to the other side…and trust God’s carrying you through. I am super blessed, hit a pothole of sorts today, worked my way through it and it actually came with a breakthrough, yay. I also got a lovely important mail bit for guidance on something else in my life.

It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to doubt from time to time. It’s okay to get angry. Keep moving forward though and the bigger picture works itself out.

Blocks by God, the Universe, Etc.

I know you love when things are going good and really dislike when things aren’t going as good as you think you’d like. Trust me, I am so there with you!

Sometimes signs come in different ways and you may not realize about a particular sign until you notice a pattern happening. This is why keeping a journal is a good idea. It’s a great way to keep notes about your day (good, potholes, observances) so as to reflect on patterns you may notice.

Yesterday I got an interesting phone call early in the morning. In the process of my day, my truck became unsafe to drive and I think I had a panic attack (pains from nowhere, hard to breathe).

I looked back on my day and tried to figure out what happened, what was going on, and if there was something I missed. What I realized is that I’ve had either medical issues or truck issues each time I thought of a certain situation over the last few months. It’s like there’s a “block” happening saying that clearly isn’t a direction I’m to go in.

I believe in signs, but I also believe in health and care. However, this oddity has been happening in one way or another over the past few months, as I said, and therefore completely noticeable to me by now.

I don’t know what direction I’m to be going, really I don’t, but I do know there’s one direction that isn’t right for me. I’ll listen to these signs and blocks. They’re pointing me towards something better, even if I don’t know what that better is just now.

I’ll put my “trust” clothes on and keep a stepping.

Sin, okay. Shame, no.

We went to a Unity church for a time many years ago. On one particular day, the lady was explaining “sin”. She said, “Sin, by definition, means you missed the mark.” I could totally see how that makes sense. That explanation fit in a way nothing else had before. I could agree with that.

We’re not perfect, nor are we meant to be. I believe perfection is an illusion really and to strive for that is just unsettling to one’s soul. Nothing is ever really perfect and if it happens to be so, it isn’t going to stay that way forever.

New cars fall apart, relationships need tending to, children need raising, that perfect job may become obsolete, etc. Life ebbs and flows like water…there is no real constant except your existence in any given moment.

I don’t think there’s room for shame in life. We aren’t perfect. We may miss the mark. We’re doing the best we can with what we’ve got (emotional views, mental views, interactions, etc.). Shame is just someone else saying to you, “You should have been a better person.” You may even be shaming yourself. I think that’s just a way to put up walls, beat yourself up, and tear down your own self-esteem. It’s like knocking down the blocks you’re building in your life because you built a lego tower with red bricks in one corner instead of blue. So what? Are the red blocks doing their job? Do they contribute just like the blue blocks? Did you make a strong, sturdy tower? Don’t knock that thing down, keep building, keep sharing, keep moving forward.

Religion talks about sin and shame, treating a person as if they just can’t seem to get it right in God’s eyes. I don’t think God takes score like that.

I think God wants us to connect with one another. I think he wants us to help others build their towers, cheer them on, and encourage their individuality. I think he wants us to be our best as a sign to other people that it’s okay to do their best, even if it’s different than the norm.

I don’t think connecting with one another means getting a mate and having children to carry on the family line. I do think connecting means checking in on one another, writing a letter, calling someone on the phone, asking if they’re okay and listening to their feelings no matter what they are. I think it’s giving hugs, loving to the best of your ability, teaching what you know to someone else, having compassion for someone who’s going through a tough time of sorts, etc.

This, above all else, is an essential part of what we’re to be doing as human beings. Missing the mark, it happens. Helping one another on our journey, that’s a key right there.

A bird nearby

Today I was walking in my yard and took some time to feel the lovely weather, breathe the fresh air. I looked into the sky and saw a huge, beautiful bird. I think it was an eagle, but I can’t be certain. Either way, I watched it. He’d flown quite close to me, maybe 15 feet into the sky, and glided thereabouts for a few seconds.

I watched it. I felt it’s presence. I saw nature at a lovely moment. It brought peace to my soul in that moment. It felt as though I was being looked after at that moment. As if that bit of beauty was happening before my eyes and into my life. Maybe I am not explaining it well? I am sure I am not explaining it well. lol It was majestic and powerful and peaceful all at the same time.

Have you ever had an experience like that? One that feels as if nature has paused you for a moment and reminded you to breathe? One that feels as if it’s reminding you of the rhythm and flow of the universe…as if we’re connected…not ever really separate…all being influential in some way, on some level?

I’ve felt it from time to time…sitting under my oak tree…laying on my grass and watching the blues of the sky…feeling the wind whisper of hope, goodness, life…. I hope, sometime in your life, you’ve felt it too.

Seeing God in a moment, Your 5 people

Yesterday I had an upset in my life, a pothole if you will. I was discouraged to say the least, cried a bit. However, I saw where God was at hand, helping me through it, to then work that problem out and get to the other side of it…all while still intact.

You may want to journal about your own “God moments”. There are moments in your life, and in mine, where there’s a clear feeling of being looked after. It’s a feeling of, “Okay, this has happened. What steps do I need to take to fix it?” Because of the action that happened, the co-ordinating reactions, and the attention brought to the situation that arose, things can be worked through.

Do you feel those moments? Do you trust them? Do you go through your life wanting something closer with God, but not really trusting in his presence/help? Until you get clear on who’s contributing to your life…God, partner, children, friends, etc….and who’s bringing value to it…you’ll wander around feeling lost and directionless.

You must decide in whom you’ll trust. You must decide who matters to you in your life and how best to live according to those factors, not other “usual” people.

I read the other day that a person is the sum of the 5 most people he hangs out with. What I thought about that is that I hang out with an odd assortment of people and it would make for an interesting take on my life. What I felt all of these people have in common is that I trust them. That’s the common denominator for me.

What I am realizing as I write this is, have I ever thought about God being one of those 5 people? I didn’t see that thinking until just now. We think of the 5 people as only the humans we see. What about the God factor? Can he be considered one of the 5? Looking at it right now, in this enlightened moment, I can definitely say God is in my circle of 5 people. This brings my perspective of my life into a deeper realization. Is this something you could ponder?

Perspective change and flowers

I do not have a green thumb at all. I have bought many plants, trying to build up a garden from time to time. At this writing, there are two flowering bushes/trees doing really well and two that hopefully made it through this winter. That’s it. My ratio of lovely plants to what I’ve bought is like 1:8. I’m just not good at it. To prove the point even farther, I killed an aloe vera plant. An aloe! I thought those things were hardy!! I guess not in my hands, nope. lol

So, in my dream world, I’d have a really beautiful flower garden. The kind that gets photographed and put in a magazine, like Southern Living. 😀 For now, I buy several at a time and hope one survives.

I realized something today though. I started crocheting little flowers last year. I think they’re lovely bits of happy that can be tucked into a note or given as a token of care. Today’s realization was that I AM making beautiful flowers. I AM creating that sort of garden in a way that’s lasting, colorful, and just as lovely to have.

I made so many last year and new ones this year, even given some as tokens in letters I’ve written, and still have lots left. I really do enjoy making them. It’s the colors, the craft, the care all wrapped in one. I am considering a little business from this outlet. Making pretty lapel pins to adorn myself with an everlasting flower, maybe others can do the same.

I like this idea and look forward to where it can take me. Everlasting flowers. 🙂 This may be even better than the garden I originally had in mind. It will allow my “garden” to be all over the world…to wherever they are purchased or given. This is the most beautiful thought of today for me. 🙂 Thank you for being a part of it.

Ps. Here’s a picture of one flower. To me, they are so happy!!! 😀

rose with info

Being psychic, all the answers? No.

One thing I’ve learned from being psychic is that I don’t have all the answers. People like to challenge and ask what the winning lottery numbers are or to guess what they’re thinking. That’s ridiculous in some ways. Being more intuitive and knowing some things because we’ve got the communication flowing between us and spirits, doesn’t mean we want you to act like we’re in a freak show.

We’re people going through life, sorting out our own stuff, just like everyone else. There isn’t really a “better view” for us than for you. I sometimes think that I should have a better life because I’m more “in the know”, but that’s really not how it works.

I’ve got things to sort out in my own life, relationships to build, people to encourage, my faith to keep me in comfort. My “extra” just happens to be an intuitive one. Someone else’s “extra” can be taking care of patients, growing flowers, discovering new worlds in space, etc.

I sometimes get psychic readings for myself. Some people can insight for themselves. I prefer a different perspective and one not clouded by my own feelings. While getting readings are good sometimes (and sometimes they’re not), they should be considered as thoughts to ponder in addition to what you’re feeling.

Several reasons…. 1. Regardless of what a reader tells you, it is up to you to make the decisions in your life. No one should have more control than you about what you have going on, how you’re handling it, and what you’re going to do about it. 2. Even if someone predicted something for you ahead, it’s still ahead and you still have to work your way there. 3. Not all predictions will happen. You are creating your life in every day and you could do something radically different one day that causes your life to shift on a completely different path than the one that was predicted.

I hope this helps in some way as you give this post thought. We’re all working on our individual lives in every moment of every day. There are helping hands that come in many forms…guidance from many avenues…but it’s still for you to choose and figure out.