New kid on the block

I wondered what to write next, as I often do, and God reminded me of the time we lived in an apartment complex. At the time, it was the last street in what was the “black” neighborhood area of town. We were a young white couple with a one year old.

I was driving around town looking for a new place for us to live. I happened by this three building, two story apartment complex. One downstairs apartment was clearly vacant. I got out of my car to look into the front window, wondering about the place.

It just so happened the woman in the adjoining downstairs place was home, not feeling well, that day. She saw me, came out and we got to talking. She was devoutly Christian and said it was good she was home that day to talk with me and encourage me to get the apartment for us. We were friends the whole time we lived there. Her and her husband had six boys and they were the best neighbors.

We get the apartment and were there for about a year I think. We were the only white people in this whole neighborhood. We were nice, they were nice, everyone kept to themselves mostly though. We mainly interacted with the lady and her family next door. There was an upstairs neighbor guy who had an old truck. We became friendly with him as my husband loves older vehicles. To this day, if we see each other, we say hello in that friendly friend way.

My husband went to school with some of the people in that neighborhood. One of the guys he knew did approach him and ask if he was a planted NARC. My husband assured him that was not the situation at all. We were creating a life like everyone else.

Once, the police were looking for an escaped criminal at like 3 am. They knocked on all of the doors in the complex. When they got to our door and a white guy answered, they quickly eliminated us as possibly harboring the person. That was the only real frightening thing that happened while we were there. We joke about it now.

We mostly lived there in peace and quiet. All of us doing the best we could with what we had. One time we snaked an extension cord from our back window to the neighbor lady’s back window to give them a little light for a couple of weeks until they could catch up on their light bill.

All of the neighbor lady’s boys loved my little girl and played with her. The woman wanted a girl and prayed lots to God for one. I don’t know where she is now, but I’d like to think she’s got her own little girl now. All of them boys loving and protecting her. It’s a fine family to be blessed into.

By the time we moved out of that complex, there were other white families in there and mexican too. It was becoming a diverse place in the neighborhood. I don’t know how it is today, but back then, we were the first to diversify that space. We, essentially, paved the way for possibilities that may not have been considered before by anyone else.

That’s how life can be sometimes. Sometimes you do something that may seem odd and different than what would normally be done, but maybe you’re paving the way for someone else to come along after you.

God in the Card deck preview

Hi! I have been on this unique journey for some time now. Part of the complication of it is that I have a strong faith in God, yet am a high intuitive. For many years, I felt I had to choose one or the other side of myself and that never really worked out. If I tried to be more intuitive and only hang out with psychic people, God would plant someone right in front of me to help them with their faith. If I tried to be more into the faith in God path only, God would plant someone else right in front of me to talk about the person’s gifts or something else needed directly by me. The struggle was real for many years.

Sometimes I’ve wanted to teach people about a loving God as I know him, but then I’d wonder how that would evolve. It would be a picture I’d be scared of. I mean, are lots of people going to come to me for their spiritual needs? Can I be the person that helps them? Would others think, because I wasn’t using a bible as my main preaching point, that I wasn’t authentic? Lots and lots of things like that went through my head sometimes and the pressure was real.

Somehow though, I realized that I’m clearly a niche’ person offering a niche’ view and services. While I don’t know how well people will think I fit, I do know I fit somewhere and that’s important. If I am in this position of feelings about God or being gifted or both, then someone, somewhere is feeling a little lost too and I can be that person to shed some light on their life. I don’t need to think in terms of the fear thoughts. I can think in terms of, “I will help whomever I need to as I am led or they are led to me.” It’s all about one step at a time, one person at a time, one moment at a time. My little niche’ fits this world and there are people looking for and needing what I offer. God wouldn’t have made me strong between worlds if there wasn’t a need. Coming to this realization is a huge thing for me and it shifted things in a magnificent way.

So, as part of that thinking, I’ve created a “tarot-type” deck that’s meant to be an alternative consideration in an intuitive way. I will be offering it soon. The objective is to do what tarot cards do, shuffle, focus, pull a card or two to ponder.

I don’t consider cards of any sort (tarot, lenormand, oracle) to be solutions. They are merely thoughts to ponder. If a card confirms your thoughts, great. If a card points out something amiss, great too. You’ve still got to do the work, figure things out, and make decisions. Nothing in the cards can do that for you. Only you can shape and create your life. You are always the captain of your ship.

I will have pictures and ordering information soon. Thank you for being here!

What if the good growth scares you?

I’ve got some things going on in my life that are in the developing stages. One step has to happen before the next step, etc. This is actually a good thing for me as changes tend to unsettle me…like digging dirt that’s been minding it’s own business so as to plant something beautiful or helpful there.

That said, change hasn’t always been my best vibe. Maybe some people love reinventing themselves. Maybe others can change their vibe to be sassy one minute, serious the next. Maybe I am overthinking this too. I am probably overthinking it.

So, I am excited and happy with these new changes, even as I am freaking out about them. I am looking forward to this new thing, that new thing. I figure if I’m going through this, there are clear signs these things should be happening right now, then I remind myself that I will also be equipped in anything I need along the way and thereafter.

Are you going through some good changes you’ve wanted? Are you going through some changes you didn’t expect? Do you feel intrigued by the possibilities? Would you rather hide away for a time to ponder, then adjust? Are you like the kid who didn’t want to do something your parent asked you to…kicking and screaming the whole time…then, when you get there, you’re thrilled at what’s going on?!

I believe that I am equipped, even when there are changes I may or may not be aware of, and that means I am okay. I believe the changes will uplevel my life in ways that bring blessings into my life and also a new ease. I believe the changes will also benefit others in some way.

On one of the changes, I wondered what the benefit of it would be. I was told in Spirit that there are people needing what I’m about to offer. It doesn’t get clearer than that. Life has changes from time to time. It’s okay to be fearful, it’s also okay to walk gently forward, whatever brought you here, has brought you into something beautiful, blessed, blissful.

Ease in Life

A thought came to mind the other day, “If I feel I am being taken care of in this moment, I must breathe with the ease that makes it so.” I know it’s a powerful statement and one worth BEing in.

Sometimes I can be in that moment and relax and trust that things are all working out in my favor in divine timing. Sometimes, the stress still happens and I’m just doing my best with each passing moment.

I no longer tell myself the negative crap. That doesn’t solve anything and I’m doing my best in every day, that’s all I got. It’s become much easier to remember to breathe and flow. However, I will ponder the “how will I pay for this new bill, how will I accomplish this new task, how will things work out”. Maybe it’s a new form of negative crap?

I have also added this reminder: “If I have been brought to this, things will work out in my favor about it.” I now say this one more and it does help in the vibe raising.

As always, do your best, it’s okay to have days where your best doesn’t get very far, and don’t go telling yourself you’re not capable/good enough/able. You can do it.

A new project, have you been thinking of one to pursue?

I’ve been told I’d write a book for years. I wrote a little one many years ago about how best to navigate life, some color knowledge, and other tidbits I thought a young person should know. However, I was still getting messages in various readings that there was another book and this one would be of great importance.

I was faced with the “do the book” thought the other day. I am like, “Okay, I will speak on a loving, comforting God”. I figure, maybe I will have enough stuff this time to make something of substance.

Then, the idea came to me to take this opportunity to write about a loving, comforting God in a different way than I’d seen anywhere else. It’s a bit “out of the box”, but then, I’ve been blazing new trails for years, this would be just another trail for people to consider on their journey.

I was talking with a friend yesterday and she gave me another aspect to consider. I said to her, “I am not sure who would even want this when I’m done.” She said she knew of at least one person who would. I also heard, in Spirit, “People want to hear from God, but not necessarily by way of the Bible.” Hmm. I guess that’s that.

On that note, coming soon, I will have a written way for you to consider a loving, comforting path with God in an unusual perspective.

Sometimes, you are led to certain places to show other people it can be done

I sometimes ask God what to write here. From there, I am usually reminded of a memory or thought. I figure, “Okay.” Here’s today’s thought, “Sometimes you are led to certain places or to certain experiences to show other people it can be done.”

We’d made some friends in a neighborhood where we bought a house and lived in for a time. After we moved out of the house, we’d moved into a little RV back in my hometown. I remember us visiting these friends and telling them we’d moved into a little RV and were staying in that until we figured out our next house move. They’d looked at us odd as they’d never heard of such a thing; however, somewhere down the line, they looked into a little RV for one of their sons and his girlfriend. To give them their own space, yet put them in the yard. If we hadn’t done it first, they may not have seen that as an option.

Another neighbor bought the same riding lawn mower and motorcycle as we had. In general conversations, we said what we loved about these things we used. When it came time to buy the lawnmower or when the lady wanted to buy her husband a motorcycle as a surprise, both times she chose what we had. In a way that seemed kind of odd, to be “copied” like that, but then again, if one does mention the great qualities of what they have, some think it’s a good idea to follow along in that regard.

These are two random memories come to mind. The point is, we are interacting to help each other in some way. Sometimes we know it, like going to school, taking a course, collaborating on a project. Other times, we don’t know it because we share the information then move forward with our lives, like chatting with some stranger in a diner. We think we’re just chatting. What we actually do is provide information they somehow will need in their own future.

It’s fascinating and vital really. No one person can know everything, that’s part of why communication and interacting is important. If you don’t know what you need to know, getting out and about will present someone on your path with the knowledge you need. This is a truth.

I am a high intuitive with a firm faith in God.

I don’t know how to define myself, to anyone really. I have several psychic gifts, but also a firm belief that God takes care of me and my needs. I’ve been walking this middle road for some time. For several years, I cried about it. For those same years, I tried to choose between them. I cried more.

God never did let me let go of anything. If I think I’d only do one gift, he’d bring someone else before me asking about another gift I have. This went on and on for some time too. I can safely say this goes on even today.

In general, by now, most people know me by two things, my faith, and my ability to read colors. These are the things people usually look to me for. Talking about that now, where does that define me? Where does that take me?

At work, alone with my thoughts, I ask this every single day there. I don’t really come up with an answer. I figure if I had an answer, I’d have a focus. The one way to grow a life is to have focus. That’s the general idea I read everywhere.

The thing I’ve wanted to do the longest is teach people about a life with God as I have. The life with God is based on a working relationship rather than shame or religion and is something I’ve wanted to create for years. Maybe, somewhere down the line, that will happen.

God has put people before me who needed exactly that perspective. I have seen these people shed fear, judgement, and pain based on the comforting words I said to them. I am amazed each time it happens.

I know it only takes one person, one bit of words, one hug…to really help someone sometimes. When I am that vessel, in that way, it is felt deeply. It is felt by the person gaining light and by me for being able to witness it.

I saw Steve Harvey say he had a dream to get on T.V. He said he had that dream since he was a child. Despite the troubling years, he held on to that. As I sit here now, I wonder about my own thing. I can hold on to this dream, despite what I don’t see, and trust that God has a right timing if it’s meant to be.

Aside from that, I can continue to be my best in all of my awesomeness because that’s how it should be.

I will breathe, keep trying to focus, but mostly trust in God’s care of my life.

From this day forward

We tend to find the time to tell ourselves we’ve messed up, told ourselves we’re not doing things good enough, even that we’ve failed. We think telling ourselves this will help us to become better people from this day forward.

The truth is that we can only do our best in every day, every moment we’ve got. There are no guarantees, none. We make choices based on our needs and desires. Sometimes we hope for something better, seeking it out diligently.

I looked at my life recently and wondered about what I didn’t accomplish. I am still working for the corporation and not for myself. That’s something I’ve been seeking for about 20 years. This thought of just now far I haven’t gotten used to upset me from time to time; however, the thought of regret or whatever else goes along with looking back won’t change where I am today.

I am still in the converted school bus and not in a conventional house. This bothered me even more because I’ve been working full time for the past several years and figured I’d be much more “social status advanced” for my age.

I can’t fix these things in the current situation any more than I’ve tried. I can’t make things better by getting upset that they aren’t better. I can only work with what I have in today. I can only be creative and brave in what I’ve got today.

I am still working on these things and believe they will become awesome, blessing manifestations in my life at some point, yes. Will I look back and say anything was wasted, foolish, misguided? No. I will not. These things and others are ones I am hopeful to happen in my life. I trust that. I will anticipate it happening in divine timing. I will even pray for the divine timing of them. I will sit in peace and grace.

I will also do my best in every day, from this day forward, and leave the guilt vibes where they lay.

God Called

I’ve been trying to create a business/career of my own for years now. I figured long ago if I worked hard for someone else, why can’t I work hard for myself. It’s been a journey that I haven’t quite gotten anywhere with, yet evolving has happened.

I tried many things, making jewelry, learning life insurance, baking cakes, dying scarves, crocheting items, etc. I learned lots of different things along the way and also learned other intuitive skills that I discovered I have. The list is rather long and still doesn’t encompass very much. That in itself is amazing to me. My main specialties include reading colors (from random picks to whole wardrobe choices), writing intuitive encouragement/comfort letters (still my favorite), to giving intuitive advice in random spoken conversation (I’ve hit lots of bulls eyes with this one).

So, I have gained more skills and more knowledge. That’s awesome, yet none of it has created a business that’s sustained me and my family.

I’ve always said it must be divine timing more than my own wants because I’ve tried to become many different things. I’ve even thought of becoming a preacher of God’s love, but that’s just too big of shoes to fill I think.

Sometimes, when there’s a quiet moment, memories that become insight show up. There are two distinct memories that showed up about this and it’s when “God Called”. It totally speaks of divine timing and that’s a cue for me to just chill, relax, and flow.

So, here’s the two memories. Joyce Meyer said she was called by God to start a ministry. She was okay with that, tried to work another job in her “starting out/transitioning” stage, but the job kept getting in the way of her ministry. It’s what God wanted her to now focus on and he was being stern about it. So, she let go of how she thought she should make her living and became a full-time minister because that was her divine timing and direct direction from God at that time. It wouldn’t have worked before that time. It may not have worked if she’d have passed it on by. It worked in the time God spoke to her directly about using her gifts exclusively to be of service.

The other memory is a recent one and that’s probably how this whole “pondering thoughts for my own life” bit happened. I was watching a conference on YouTube involving Carol Pate. She got into how her life evolved into becoming a psychic detective. I was fascinated. The bit about divine timing though…okay. She says she was working full-time for a major corporation, then was offered a better job with more incentives several states away. While she pondered that, a career she was doing well at, God called her into going full-time with her psychic gifts to become a psychic detective. She said didn’t expect that, had no clue really where to begin, but God said it was time. So she followed God’s lead and that’s what she does.

In a quiet moment, these thoughts were brought to my attention and helped me see that divine timing is as crucial as I think it is. It is best for me to do what I do, make the most of every day, and flow with how things are going. If I see God in one minute, he’s there in the next…this includes areas of my life I am trying to “push” forward. Life isn’t meant to be pushed. Explored, sure. Bravery, absolutely. Sharing Love, yes.

The Perfect Sized Box

I had finished a project given to me by a friend. This friend lived across the states and I was going to need a box to mail the item in. I knew the item in question would need a specific sized box, not too big, not too small. So, I put it out to God, the Angels and my Helpers that I needed a right sized box. I then let go of the request. (((I should get better at that part, the letting go so it can be handled. lol )))

My husband wanted a small hand-held radio he could play outside when he is sitting under the tree. I’d looked for one several times and in several places. I came across one on Saturday that was perfect. It was on a market sales page and the person was willing to ship it to me.

It gets sent on Monday and arrives yesterday. It turns out to be the perfect size for the project. It’s just the right box so as to have a snug fit with no room for much extra. I did put a little extra in there though.

Seeing that box, finding out it was the right size, just made me smile so big and feel the connection so deep. It was a good thing. It is a good thing.

That is how we should handle some things, request it of the Universe, God, however you look at it. Sometimes we have to request it, maybe even think on it several times so as to keep focused on manifesting it in our lives.

I know I say we should take action on some things to make them happen, the Universe/God/Etc will match that for you and it’s a very valid point. However, sometimes the action is simply the request.

How do you know the difference? Well, you don’t. You make the request and relax. If you feel led to do something different, take a certain action, then that’s the nudge for your action to the request. If you feel to just request and wait, then do that. You will get signs and feelings either way and that’s how you know how things will happen for you.

If I can trust that the right box is coming my way, I can trust that other things I request can come my way as well. Maybe you can try this today or for something specific in your life? It can be as easy as “I am attending an event in a few days, please help it go smoothly for me. Thank you.” It doesn’t have to be a box, it can be a situation or relationship. The aid does have to be requested.