God in the Card deck preview

Hi! I have been on this unique journey for some time now. Part of the complication of it is that I have a strong faith in God, yet am a high intuitive. For many years, I felt I had to choose one or the other side of myself and that never really worked out. If I tried to be more intuitive and only hang out with psychic people, God would plant someone right in front of me to help them with their faith. If I tried to be more into the faith in God path only, God would plant someone else right in front of me to talk about the person’s gifts or something else needed directly by  me. The struggle was real for many years.

Sometimes I’ve wanted to teach people about a loving God as I know him, but then I’d wonder how that would evolve. It would be a picture I’d be scared of. I mean, are lots of people going to come to me for their spiritual needs? Can I be the person that helps them? Would others think, because I wasn’t using a bible as my main preaching point, that I wasn’t authentic? Lots and lots of things like that went through my head sometimes and the pressure was real.

Somehow though, I realized that I’m clearly a niche’ person offering a niche’ view and services. While I don’t know how well people will think I fit, I do know I fit somewhere and that’s important. If I am in this position of feelings about God or being gifted or both, then someone, somewhere is feeling a little lost too and I can be that person to shed some light on their life. I don’t need to think in terms of the fear thoughts. I can think in terms of, “I will help whomever I need to as I am led or they are led to me.” It’s all about one step at a time, one person at a time, one moment at a time. My little niche’ fits this world and there are people looking for and needing what I offer. God wouldn’t have made me strong between worlds if there wasn’t a need. Coming to this realization is a huge thing for me and it shifted things in a magnificent way.

So, as part of that thinking, I’ve created a “tarot-type” deck that’s meant to be an alternative consideration in an intuitive way. I will be offering it soon. The objective is to do what tarot cards do, shuffle, focus, pull a card or two to ponder.

I don’t consider cards of any sort (tarot, lenormand, oracle) to be solutions. They are merely thoughts to ponder. If a card confirms your thoughts, great. If a card points out something amiss, great too. You’ve still got to do the work, figure things out, and make decisions. Nothing in the cards can do that for you. Only you can shape and create your life. You are always the captain of your ship.

I will have pictures and ordering information soon. Thank you for being here!

What if the good growth scares you?

I’ve got some things going on in my life that are in the developing stages. One step has to happen before the next step, etc. This is actually a good thing for me as changes tend to unsettle me…like digging dirt that’s been minding it’s own business so as to plant something beautiful or helpful there.

That said, change hasn’t always been my best vibe. Maybe some people love reinventing themselves. Maybe others can change their vibe to be sassy one minute, serious the next. Maybe I am overthinking this too. I am probably overthinking it.

So, I am excited and happy with these new changes, even as I am freaking out about them. I am looking forward to this new thing, that new thing. I figure if I’m going through this, there are clear signs these things should be happening right now, then I remind myself that I will also be equipped in anything I need along the way and thereafter.

Are you going through some good changes you’ve wanted? Are you going through some changes you didn’t expect? Do you feel intrigued by the possibilities? Would you rather hide away for a time to ponder, then adjust? Are you like the kid who didn’t want to do something your parent asked you to…kicking and screaming the whole time…then, when you get there, you’re thrilled at what’s going on?!

I believe that I am equipped, even when there are changes I may or may not be aware of, and that means I am okay. I believe the changes will uplevel my life in ways that bring blessings into my life and also a new ease. I believe the changes will also benefit others in some way.

On one of the changes, I wondered what the benefit of it would be. I was told in Spirit that there are people needing what I’m about to offer. It doesn’t get clearer than that. Life has changes from time to time. It’s okay to be fearful, it’s also okay to walk gently forward, whatever brought you here, has brought you into something beautiful, blessed, blissful.

 

Ease in Life

A thought came to mind the other day, “If I feel I am being taken care of in this moment, I must breathe with the ease that makes it so.” I know it’s a powerful statement and one worth BEing in.

Sometimes I can be in that moment and relax and trust that things are all working out in my favor in divine timing. Sometimes, the stress still happens and I’m just doing my best with each passing moment.

I no longer tell myself the negative crap. That doesn’t solve anything and I’m doing my best in every day, that’s all I got. It’s become much easier to remember to breathe and flow. However, I will ponder the “how will I pay for this new bill, how will I accomplish this new task, how will things work out”. Maybe it’s a new form of negative crap?

I have also added this reminder: “If I have been brought to this, things will work out in my favor about it.” I now say this one more and it does help in the vibe raising.

As always, do your best, it’s okay to have days where your best doesn’t get very far, and don’t go telling yourself you’re not capable/good enough/able. You can do it.

A new project, have you been thinking of one to pursue?

I’ve been told I’d write a book for years. I wrote a little one many years ago about how best to navigate life, some color knowledge, and other tidbits I thought a young person should know. However, I was still getting messages in various readings that there was another book and this one would be of great importance.

I was faced with the “do the book” thought the other day. I am like, “Okay, I will speak on a loving, comforting God”. I figure, maybe I will have enough stuff this time to make something of substance.

Then, the idea came to me to take this opportunity to write about a loving, comforting God in a different way than I’d seen anywhere else. It’s a bit “out of the box”, but then, I’ve been blazing new trails for years, this would be just another trail for people to consider on their journey.

I was talking with a friend yesterday and she gave me another aspect to consider. I said to her, “I am not sure who would even want this when I’m done.” She said she knew of at least one person who would. I also heard, in Spirit, “People want to hear from God, but not necessarily by way of the Bible.” Hmm. I guess that’s that.

On that note, coming soon, I will have a written way for you to consider a loving, comforting path with God in an unusual perspective.

 

Sometimes, you are led to certain places to show other people it can be done

I sometimes ask God what to write here. From there, I am usually reminded of a memory or thought. I figure, “Okay.” Here’s today’s thought, “Sometimes you are led to certain places or to certain experiences to show other people it can be done.”

We’d made some friends in a neighborhood where we bought a house and lived in for a time. After we moved out of the house, we’d moved into a little RV back in my hometown. I remember us visiting these friends and telling them we’d moved into a little RV and were staying in that until we figured out our next house move. They’d looked at us odd as they’d never heard of such a thing; however, somewhere down the line, they looked into a little RV for one of their sons and his girlfriend. To give them their own space, yet put them in the yard. If we hadn’t done it first, they may not have seen that as an option.

Another neighbor bought the same riding lawn mower and motorcycle as we had. In general conversations, we said what we loved about these things we used. When it came time to buy the lawnmower or when the lady wanted to buy her husband a motorcycle as a surprise, both times she chose what we had. In a way that seemed kind of odd, to be “copied” like that, but then again, if one does mention the great qualities of what they have, some think it’s a good idea to follow along in that regard.

These are two random memories come to mind. The point is, we are interacting to help each other in some way. Sometimes we know it, like going to school, taking a course, collaborating on a project. Other times, we don’t know it because we share the information then move forward with our lives, like chatting with some stranger in a diner. We think we’re just chatting. What we actually do is provide information they somehow will need in their own future.

It’s fascinating and vital really. No one person can know everything, that’s part of why communication and interacting is important. If you don’t know what you need to know, getting out and about will present someone on your path with the knowledge you need. This is a truth.

 

I am a high intuitive with a firm faith in God.

I don’t know how to define myself, to anyone really. I have several psychic gifts, but also a firm belief that God takes care of me and my needs. I’ve been walking this middle road for some time. For several years, I cried about it. For those same years, I tried to choose between them. I cried more.

God never did let me let go of anything. If I think I’d only do one gift, he’d bring someone else before me asking about another gift I have.  This went on and on for some time too. I can safely say this goes on even today.

In general, by now, most people know me by two things, my faith, and my ability to read  colors. These are the things people usually look to me for. Talking about that now, where does that define me? Where does that take me?

At work, alone with my thoughts, I ask this every single day there. I don’t really come up with an answer. I figure if I had an answer, I’d have a focus. The one way to grow a life is to have focus. That’s the general idea I read everywhere.

The thing I’ve wanted to do the longest is teach people about a life with God as I have. The life with God is based on a working relationship rather than shame or religion and is something I’ve wanted to create for years. Maybe, somewhere down the line, that will happen.

God has put people before me who needed exactly that perspective. I have seen these people shed fear, judgement, and pain based on the comforting words I said to them. I am amazed each time it happens.

I know it only takes one person, one bit of words, one hug…to really help someone sometimes. When I am that vessel, in that way, it is felt deeply. It is felt by the person gaining light and by me for being able to witness it.

I saw Steve Harvey say he had a dream to get on T.V. He said he had that dream since he was a child. Despite the troubling years, he held on to that. As I sit here now, I wonder about my own thing. I can hold on to this dream, despite what I don’t see, and trust that God has a right timing if it’s meant to be.

Aside from that, I can continue to be my best in all of my awesomeness because that’s how it should be.

I will breathe, keep trying to focus, but mostly trust in God’s care of my life.

 

From this day forward

We tend to find the time to tell ourselves we’ve messed up, told ourselves we’re not doing things good enough, even that we’ve failed. We think telling ourselves this will help us to become better people from this day forward.

The truth is that we can only do our best in every day, every moment we’ve got. There are no guarantees, none. We make choices based on our needs and desires. Sometimes we hope for something better, seeking it out diligently.

I looked at my life recently and wondered about what I didn’t accomplish. I am still working for the corporation and not for myself. That’s something I’ve been seeking for about 20 years. This thought of just now far I haven’t gotten used to upset me from time to time; however, the thought of regret or whatever else goes along with looking back won’t change where I am today.

I am still in the converted school bus and not in a conventional house. This bothered me even more because I’ve been working full time for the past several years and figured I’d be much more “social status advanced” for my age.

I can’t fix these things in the current situation any more than I’ve tried. I can’t make things better by getting upset that they aren’t better. I can only work with what I have in today. I can only be creative and brave in what I’ve got today.

I am still working on these things and believe they will become awesome, blessing manifestations in my life at some point, yes. Will I look back and say anything was wasted, foolish, misguided? No. I will not. These things and others are ones I am hopeful to happen in my life. I trust that. I will anticipate it happening in divine timing. I will even pray for the divine timing of them. I will sit in peace and grace.

I will also do my best in every day, from this day forward, and leave the guilt vibes where they lay.