blessing – Serenity with God

God put my husband directly on my path over 30 years ago. I may have mentioned it before on here. He was all blonde hair, blue eyes and waved at me that day. I’ll tell you right now, I wouldn’t have approached him. I somehow thought blondes were on another level I’d not ever be associated with so it wasn’t going to start with me.

That day, he waved. The next day, he came over and talked. We’ve had a few rocky spots and there are still disagreements from time to time, all these years later, but we’re a really great divine fit.

He loves me and encourages me to be me. I didn’t really have choices growing up and am fairly certain my mother would have steered me in another direction if it wasn’t something she liked. It’s one thing to be taught as a child, a whole other thing to be finding oneself as an adult. My husband has been and continues to be my safe space.

In many ways, I am that safe space for him. I love him, am the person who shelters him and envelopes him within that love. His own upbringing was restricted in some ways as well.

Back then I didn’t think to pray to God for a right life partner. I’d had a couple of boyfriends, a guy I really wanted, a few dates, but none of them stuck. I realize, quite often, how blessed I am to have been united with him from so young. Here we are, over 30 years later, still happy to be within each other’s lives, creating, living, BEing together.

My wish for you is that you take moments this holiday season, especially with the way this year has gone, to realize and FEEL your deepest blessings, to acknowledge them, and polish their shine.

Here and now, what you have today that has endured, is a blessing growing with each breath you take.

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What does this mean? Does this mean to give of yourself and your life every time someone else asks of you? Does it mean giving your extra often because you can and others have come to think you’ve got it, we’re friends, therefore it’s accessible to them?

I think you and I should discern what is best based on each incident and what we are able to give. I also think some things shouldn’t be overthought. You may think, “April, I don’t have anything to give so they don’t need to come finding anything here anyway.” Want to bet on that?

I live a very modest life I guess you could say. I take care of my family and have a few dollars left over for fun/savings. If you drove up to my spot right now, today, you may not think much of what I’ve got. I live in a converted school bus. My yard has some nice spots…my beloved oak tree…space for my dogs to play…a rose bush that decided to survive against the odds. It also has a small junkyard of sorts.

But, anyways, there are people who still see what you have, however much you think it’s not much, and ask about it anyway. Some may think since we’re friends, they can simply borrow or use it. That has happened a time or two. Friends of mine learn it’s okay to share and be kind, but it’s also expected that they give back. The ones that last do learn this well.

So, we’ve got this little junkyard of sorts. My son likes to tinker and it’s been an interesting thing having this area. It’s worked out well for us many times in having a spare part right in the yard of something we need for a running vehicle that needs a part. It’s also worked well for people coming to us asking if we have parts to sell.

While it doesn’t look like I’ve got much to give, someone looking for what I do have will come asking. Also, lots of people ask for your time. They think you may have freedom in a day or an hour and ask for your time. Do you have the time to give? Do you want to give of your time? You can say yes…you can say no. It’s really all up to what you’re willing to give that doesn’t drain you of energy or build resentment.

Some people make it a point to give regularly in a specific way that speaks to them, like volunteering. Some people agree to help out a friend and it becomes a regular contribution to their life. Sometimes it’s best to say “no” and that’s okay too.

If you are inclined to say “no” and you feel guilty, wondering if you really were all that person has as a helping hand, I want to assure you that you are not the only avenue of help. I believe God will put help before someone and if that someone is you and you say”no”, God will send someone else to help.

It’s like when you ask for help and get a “no”. Do you think that’s the only avenue of a solution or aid? Do you trust there is someone out there, some situation out there, that will give you a “yes”? It’s the same with others? The “no” is a guiding wave towards a yes…either for another person or yourself. Trust the flow. Loose the guilt.