Your choosing and God’s divineness

We have free will and the ability to choose and create our lives in whatever way we see fit. I completely believe this. I also believe God puts divine incidents in place from time to time, either because we’ve asked for them or because we needed that in the bigger picture of our lives.

You may ask me, “April, how do I tell the difference?” Well, here’s how I see it.

After I had graduated from high school, I had a choice to either go visit some relatives in another state for a month or start trade school. I chose trade school over the adventure. I love gaining knew knowledge and there was new knowledge to be gained at the school.

I met my husband at that school, almost from the first day. I believe God sent him upon my path because he’s exactly what I needed. Looking back now, I am what he needed as well. We’re a magnificent fit for each other in the deeper feelings of the soul.

But, let us look at the bigger picture for a moment. I could have chosen to go visit relatives. Maybe I would have met someone there who understands me. Maybe my future husband would have met another girl within that month. Maybe, after going on the trip, then coming back for school, he would have been right there waiting for me as I arrived at a different time, but still have arrived.

He took a series of actions himself to get him to the point of going to that school. His own journey was filled with his very own choices and that’s the course he created.

Even then, in meeting each other, we still had to test compatibility and get to know one another. That took some time as well. It wasn’t until years later that I understood the depth of what we’d become. That is not to say I thought I “settled” on the next person, but it is to say God knew we needed each other and the “why” of us needing each other. It was a match made in divineness.

So, while I’m making choices and he’s making choices, we came upon each other in divineness and made the choice to be together and stuck like glue ever since.

I could throw in other possibilities…such as…. I could have met someone else that would have been a benefit to my life. He could have met someone else who would have been beneficial to his life. I don’t necessarily think there is only the ONE solution as this world is so vast and diverse and filled with many choices of people and situations to encounter. I do think some choices are because of divine intervention for a better life in ways that matter to us and for bigger picture reasons as well.

If I wouldn’t have met my husband, I don’t know that I would have explored the psychic arts. I may not have realized my talents and gifts or even felt okay to use them. My intuition would have been heightened as I was using that in my waitressing career long before I explored those avenues, but the other things, who knows.

This isn’t to say I couldn’t have met someone else who would have given me the tools and knowledge to explore the psychic arts, there are many people in this world and I could have made a friend or found another partner who was one to explore those paths as well, etc. So, I could have ignored the “divineness” put upon my path with my current husband and done something else. I think about that from time to time of how ordinary my life would have been had I either stayed with someone else I dated or found someone else along those lines as opposed to meeting my husband. The possibilities are endless really. Our choices in life are great, how we create and go forward is such a magical, magnificent realm of possibilities. Amazing.

So, in this way, God’s divine intervention allowed for a “best case scenario” of needs from each of us as well as the start of my journey into developing my gifts to today, writing this blog for you.

This is how I see the difference between what we choose and what God divinely puts before us. I hope, in some way, it makes sense. Look at your own life, see how things transpired to get you to this point.

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Sometimes Faith Falters

I am here to post about faith building, having a great one-on-one with God, and encouraging your individual path doing the best you can. Most of my posts here, or anywhere, you will find that.

However, sometimes faith falters. It’s like hitting a pothole on the highway or walking into a hole in the lawn that the dog made. Just when you think you’re doing well and sort of proud of yourself, a dip happens.

Sometimes when this dip happens you’re able to recover quickly. In the situation of walking on your lawn, your body adjusts itself and it’s almost as if you didn’t even have a misstep. Other times, you actually trip and fall as a result of the hole you didn’t see. You may even sprain your ankle, break that ankle, or even cry because you are now in this position.

I think faith is like this on occasion. Sometimes we falter and cry, wondering how come we aren’t where we’d like to be in life…for one reason or another or one way or another. I think it’s perfectly okay to cry, to feel a bit adrift, to wonder if one’s faith is strong enough, to take the time to think on how far one has come, how far one has to go, to get to where one journeys to. I think this is especially true if you think you’re trying your best.

I know, for me, there are times I falter. I wonder why I haven’t gotten to some sort of stability in ways I have been aiming for in some aspects of my life. I take that time out and cry. I did it last night and this morning. At the end, I then go back to my grounded self and hold my faith close. No matter how rough the hole or the situation, my faith has always been there and will continue to be so.

I hope, any time you falter, you cry if you need to, but then you get up, dust yourself off, and keep going. Believe in yourself, in the life you’re creating, and feeling yourself get there. 🙂 Sometimes the journey is longer than expected, but I believe the destination we strive for is attainable, if not, it will be something even better for us because that’s the way of divine grace.

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God Called

I’ve been trying to create a business/career of my own for years now. I figured long ago if I worked hard for someone else, why can’t I work hard for myself. It’s been a journey that I haven’t quite gotten anywhere with, yet evolving has happened.

I tried many things, making jewelry, learning life insurance, baking cakes, dying scarves, crocheting items, etc. I learned lots of different things along the way and also learned other intuitive skills that I discovered I have. The list is rather long and still doesn’t encompass very much. That in itself is amazing to me. My main specialties include reading colors (from random picks to whole wardrobe choices), writing intuitive encouragement/comfort letters (still my favorite), to giving intuitive advice in random spoken conversation (I’ve hit lots of bulls eyes with this one).

So, I have gained more skills and more knowledge. That’s awesome, yet none of it has created a business that’s sustained me and my family.

I’ve always said it must be divine timing more than my own wants because I’ve tried to become many different things. I’ve even thought of becoming a preacher of God’s love, but that’s just too big of shoes to fill I think.

Sometimes, when there’s a quiet moment, memories that become insight show up. There are two distinct memories that showed up about this and it’s when “God Called”. It totally speaks of divine timing and that’s a cue for me to just chill, relax, and flow.

So, here’s the two memories. Joyce Meyer said she was called by God to start a ministry. She was okay with that, tried to work another job in her “starting out/transitioning” stage, but the job kept getting in the way of her ministry. It’s what God wanted her to now focus on and he was being stern about it. So, she let go of how she thought she should make her living and became a full-time minister because that was her divine timing and direct direction from God at that time. It wouldn’t have worked before that time. It may not have worked if she’d have passed it on by. It worked in the time God spoke to her directly about using her gifts exclusively to be of service.

The other memory is a recent one and that’s probably how this whole “pondering thoughts for my own life” bit happened. I was watching a conference on YouTube involving Carol Pate. She got into how her life evolved into becoming a psychic detective. I was fascinated. The bit about divine timing though…okay. She says she was working full-time for a major corporation, then was offered a better job with more incentives several states away. While she pondered that, a career she was doing well at, God called her into going full-time with her psychic gifts to become a psychic detective. She said didn’t expect that, had no clue really where to begin, but God said it was time. So she followed God’s lead and that’s what she does.

In a quiet moment, these thoughts were brought to my attention and helped me see that divine timing is as crucial as I think it is. It is best for me to do what I do, make the most of every day, and flow with how things are going. If I see God in one minute, he’s there in the next…this includes areas of my life I am trying to “push” forward. Life isn’t meant to be pushed. Explored, sure. Bravery, absolutely. Sharing Love, yes.

Praying about a Situation

I had a situation that was troubling me. I felt confrontation of a sort was needed, but I really didn’t want to be in that spot. It involved a friend of some years. I wasn’t sure how to approach it. My usual tactic is to be a complete bitch and expect the ties to be severed.

I wasn’t really in the mood for doing that though. I talked to several people to get their take on it. I also know that the perspective can be skewed because we can present an argument that favors our side. Lots and lots of people do this for a multitude of reasons. Just the other day I said to someone, “Please give me a reason that favors the positive other side.” The person did.

Even so, I kept praying and asking God to tend to this situation. I wanted an answer God would give me and definitely in a way I could live with. Well, this last weekend, a better turn of events happened in this situation. None of it had to do with me being confrontational or even feeling the need to have a conversation either.

The other person did something different and it allowed an ease to come back into the situation. It didn’t resolve the situation to the way I wanted, but I knew that would be a little tricker as the situation really was based on a need…regardless of what ever else I thought about it.

For this moment, I felt God made it go back to some ease. The situation wasn’t resolved, no, but there was no longer a need for conflict just now and I am glad I let God handle it more so than what I had in mind. This gives me more peace about it at the moment.

In another thought, I have pondered many times how God has had us help others even when we don’t have much. Somehow, what we do have…in many different ways…was enough for each person needing it.

A friend stored some items here recently as he found himself quickly needing to move. When he came back to get those items, amid conversations my husband and the friend had, the friend was given some of the items we had stored that weren’t being of any use to us.

It was being helpful in an unexpected way, taking care of some of his needs we found out he had, and allowing for the flow of that instead of holding on to something we weren’t going to use anytime soon.

Also, if we released it, whatever IT is, because it wasn’t being useful to us, we must trust that we will gain back something of equal or better value in that space should we find ourselves in that kind of need in the future. This is a very important part of the trust of the flow of the Divine.

What if things went smoothly?

Sometimes we want to dream up things for ourselves, but our fears of things like…”how will I make the new thing work”, “how will my life become more complicated”, or “can I be that brave over and over again”…come to mind.

We want to be bolder, take new steps, accomplish a great many things. We stop our own selves because we don’t see the “how” of it. We just don’t know how the routine will be, wondering if we’ll have another disrespecting boss, wondering if we could make it on our own, figuring the routine you already know is easier, etc….fill in this spot with your own personal view.

I’ve said this before, the Universe will match you step for step. Whatever it is you want to accomplish or create, the Universe will work with you to make it happen…if it’s the right divine thing for you. Sometimes, the answer is “no”. Sometimes the answer is “not right now”. Sometimes the answer is “yes, about time”.

This is why it’s important to be open to the signs you get. I’ve tried to create many things over the years. I tried to be braver, to create something I thought could withstand the tests of time, and really didn’t get anywhere with them.

One thing I really want to do is create a program of sorts where I teach personal interaction skills to teenagers. I vividly remember having a conversation about 6 years ago with a woman at a Mardi Gras gathering. I told her how much I wanted to teach these people what they may not have been taught along the way.

We expect these young people to go through school, make the best grades they can make, and then say, “Get a job, a place, go out into the world on your own.” I think lots of people aren’t equipped with the interaction skills to navigate that. Maybe they are equipped with some of them, but could use other skills too.

Things like, “It’s okay to say no”, “What do you want, even if it’s something different than what was expected of you”, “Here are some pointers for better conversation so as not to feel defensive”, etc.

As I was having that conversation, I completely felt the Divine presence of that being a huge right thing to be doing. Since then, I’d tried several times and in several ways to make it happen. Maybe I wasn’t brave enough? Maybe I just haven’t met the right person and that’s in a divine time that hasn’t arrived yet? Maybe it isn’t meant to be?

What I do know is, if I really want it and it’s supposed to happen, it will happen. I simply must trust in that feeling I had many years ago, envision myself in that environment..making a difference in some lives…trusting it will happen if it’s meant to be so.

In the meantime, I play around with what I can do today. I create little things and big ideas and trust that my life is right where it’s supposed to be in this moment. If it isn’t right where it’s supposed to be, I trust I will find my way to there somehow.

Some people believe we are always guided to our truth…the core of what we’re to accomplish in this life…no matter how far we stray from that truth, we are internally being led back to it. If we’re on that path already, it’s like making a divine impact in every single day.

Your life was good before, there’s always something good happening because you’re here. The Divinely Led life though…wow…it flows almost as if by magic. Lots of ease happens when you’re right where you’re supposed to be in the bigger picture of things.

This post is a bit sporadic. I am not sure what you may or may not get out of it, but it is what it is. Maybe your own thoughts are random like this and you sort of filter them out to what see what stays in the clear and what washes away.