God Called

I’ve been trying to create a business/career of my own for years now. I figured long ago if I worked hard for someone else, why can’t I work hard for myself. It’s been a journey that I haven’t quite gotten anywhere with, yet evolving has happened.

I tried many things, making jewelry, learning life insurance, baking cakes, dying scarves, crocheting items, etc. I learned lots of different things along the way and also learned other intuitive skills that I discovered I have. The list is rather long and still doesn’t encompass very much. That in itself is amazing to me. My main specialties include reading colors (from random picks to whole wardrobe choices), writing intuitive encouragement/comfort letters (still my favorite), to giving intuitive advice in random spoken conversation (I’ve hit lots of bulls eyes with this one).

So, I have gained more skills and more knowledge. That’s awesome, yet none of it has created a business that’s sustained me and my family.

I’ve always said it must be divine timing more than my own wants because I’ve tried to become many different things. I’ve even thought of becoming a preacher of God’s love, but that’s just too big of shoes to fill I think.

Sometimes, when there’s a quiet moment, memories that become insight show up. There are two distinct memories that showed up about this and it’s when “God Called”. It totally speaks of divine timing and that’s a cue for me to just chill, relax, and flow.

So, here’s the two memories. Joyce Meyer said she was called by God to start a ministry. She was okay with that, tried to work another job in her “starting out/transitioning” stage, but the job kept getting in the way of her ministry. It’s what God wanted her to now focus on and he was being stern about it. So, she let go of how she thought she should make her living and became a full-time minister because that was her divine timing and direct direction from God at that time. It wouldn’t have worked before that time. It may not have worked if she’d have passed it on by. It worked in the time God spoke to her directly about using her gifts exclusively to be of service.

The other memory is a recent one and that’s probably how this whole “pondering thoughts for my own life” bit happened. I was watching a conference on YouTube involving Carol Pate. She got into how her life evolved into becoming a psychic detective. I was fascinated. The bit about divine timing though…okay. She says she was working full-time for a major corporation, then was offered a better job with more incentives several states away. While she pondered that, a career she was doing well at, God called her into going full-time with her psychic gifts to become a psychic detective. She said didn’t expect that, had no clue really where to begin, but God said it was time. So she followed God’s lead and that’s what she does.

In a quiet moment, these thoughts were brought to my attention and helped me see that divine timing is as crucial as I think it is. It is best for me to do what I do, make the most of every day, and flow with how things are going. If I see God in one minute, he’s there in the next…this includes areas of my life I am trying to “push” forward. Life isn’t meant to be pushed. Explored, sure. Bravery, absolutely. Sharing Love, yes.

Praying about a Situation

I had a situation that was troubling me. I felt confrontation of a sort was needed, but I really didn’t want to be in that spot. It involved a friend of some years. I wasn’t sure how to approach it. My usual tactic is to be a complete bitch and expect the ties to be severed.

I wasn’t really in the mood for doing that though. I talked to several people to get their take on it. I also know that the perspective can be skewed because we can present an argument that favors our side. Lots and lots of people do this for a multitude of reasons. Just the other day I said to someone, “Please give me a reason that favors the positive other side.” The person did.

Even so, I kept praying and asking God to tend to this situation. I wanted an answer God would give me and definitely in a way I could live with. Well, this last weekend, a better turn of events happened in this situation. None of it had to do with me being confrontational or even feeling the need to have a conversation either.

The other person did something different and it allowed an ease to come back into the situation. It didn’t resolve the situation to the way I wanted, but I knew that would be a little tricker as the situation really was based on a need…regardless of what ever else I thought about it.

For this moment, I felt God made it go back to some ease. The situation wasn’t resolved, no, but there was no longer a need for conflict just now and I am glad I let God handle it more so than what I had in mind. This gives me more peace about it at the moment.

In another thought, I have pondered many times how God has had us help others even when we don’t have much. Somehow, what we do have…in many different ways…was enough for each person needing it.

A friend stored some items here recently as he found himself quickly needing to move. When he came back to get those items, amid conversations my husband and the friend had, the friend was given some of the items we had stored that weren’t being of any use to us.

It was being helpful in an unexpected way, taking care of some of his needs we found out he had, and allowing for the flow of that instead of holding on to something we weren’t going to use anytime soon.

Also, if we released it, whatever IT is, because it wasn’t being useful to us, we must trust that we will gain back something of equal or better value in that space should we find ourselves in that kind of need in the future. This is a very important part of the trust of the flow of the Divine.

What if things went smoothly?

Sometimes we want to dream up things for ourselves, but our fears of things like…”how will I make the new thing work”, “how will my life become more complicated”, or “can I be that brave over and over again”…come to mind.

We want to be bolder, take new steps, accomplish a great many things. We stop our own selves because we don’t see the “how” of it. We just don’t know how the routine will be, wondering if we’ll have another disrespecting boss, wondering if we could make it on our own, figuring the routine you already know is easier, etc….fill in this spot with your own personal view.

I’ve said this before, the Universe will match you step for step. Whatever it is you want to accomplish or create, the Universe will work with you to make it happen…if it’s the right divine thing for you. Sometimes, the answer is “no”. Sometimes the answer is “not right now”. Sometimes the answer is “yes, about time”.

This is why it’s important to be open to the signs you get. I’ve tried to create many things over the years. I tried to be braver, to create something I thought could withstand the tests of time, and really didn’t get anywhere with them.

One thing I really want to do is create a program of sorts where I teach personal interaction skills to teenagers. I vividly remember having a conversation about 6 years ago with a woman at a Mardi Gras gathering. I told her how much I wanted to teach these people what they may not have been taught along the way.

We expect these young people to go through school, make the best grades they can make, and then say, “Get a job, a place, go out into the world on your own.” I think lots of people aren’t equipped with the interaction skills to navigate that. Maybe they are equipped with some of them, but could use other skills too.

Things like, “It’s okay to say no”, “What do you want, even if it’s something different than what was expected of you”, “Here are some pointers for better conversation so as not to feel defensive”, etc.

As I was having that conversation, I completely felt the Divine presence of that being a huge right thing to be doing. Since then, I’d tried several times and in several ways to make it happen. Maybe I wasn’t brave enough? Maybe I just haven’t met the right person and that’s in a divine time that hasn’t arrived yet? Maybe it isn’t meant to be?

What I do know is, if I really want it and it’s supposed to happen, it will happen. I simply must trust in that feeling I had many years ago, envision myself in that environment..making a difference in some lives…trusting it will happen if it’s meant to be so.

In the meantime, I play around with what I can do today. I create little things and big ideas and trust that my life is right where it’s supposed to be in this moment. If it isn’t right where it’s supposed to be, I trust I will find my way to there somehow.

Some people believe we are always guided to our truth…the core of what we’re to accomplish in this life…no matter how far we stray from that truth, we are internally being led back to it. If we’re on that path already, it’s like making a divine impact in every single day.

Your life was good before, there’s always something good happening because you’re here. The Divinely Led life though…wow…it flows almost as if by magic. Lots of ease happens when you’re right where you’re supposed to be in the bigger picture of things.

This post is a bit sporadic. I am not sure what you may or may not get out of it, but it is what it is. Maybe your own thoughts are random like this and you sort of filter them out to what see what stays in the clear and what washes away.

A Hotel Analogy

I recently got a job at a small, three floor hotel in my little town. The hotel mainly services the railroad nearby, but also travelers looking for a place to rest. I knew the hotel serviced the railroad. There is a smaller hotel on the other side of town that serviced the railroad to begin with many years ago.

As I work there, I begin to see what a beehive of a hotel this is. There are people checking in and checking out at all of the hours of the day. Each one coming or going based on their work or traveling needs.

Some of them don’t say anything as they move about, some give a simple “hello”, and others introduce themselves as regular guests of the hotel.

As I worked through the hotel rooms, cleaning them one by one, the front desk lady rents these rooms out. I had cleaned one room in particular and, shortly thereafter, it got booked out.

That helped me see just how things really do come and go. Then I got to seeing it from a deeper perspective of, each person has their own room and space. Sometimes I don’t see any guest at all, sometimes I see one or two, sometimes they talk to me.

That’s how life is. We meet some people, pass by others, really connect on a deeper level with those that stop and have conversations. Sometimes it may seem like nothing, but it’s always something being created, moving, and even being quiet.

I find it fascinating! As you go about your day, I want to encourage you to make new friends, reach out to those friends you value, let go of those that no longer serve your needs. Notice it’s all an ebb and a flow, things moving around you and can move according to your own choices.

Some days, just relax and flow…..

I am on day three of a major sinus annoyance. My son just got over his and said I’ve got a couple of days left before the tide turns. I’ve taken just about every strong sinus medicine we have and none of it is working well.

Because of this, my life has literally come to a halt. If I take a nap during the day, I feel better for about an hour and do something that needs to be done, like dishes. But then, after being awake for that hour, my body feels drained again. Like my internal tank will only go to one quarter full in little spurts at a time.

There is nothing much to do for this but take medicine, drink lots of water, and know my body will rid itself of the imbalance.

If you’ve had a sick day recently, I hope you took that day to flow with your body slowing down and needing to heal. If you get sick in the near future, consider taking that day or a few to flow with what’s happening to your body and try not to think of what you “could/should/would” be doing. There are times we really do need a day off, even from the basic routines of our lives.

In the know flow

When you’re on the right track of a thing, your life flows fairly easily. Happenings are almost life gifts given to you. I remember when my husband and I were house hunting many years ago. We’d looked and looked and had seen quite a few houses all over the area. Some we immediately said “no” to and some we thought long on; however, when we found a little house out farther yonder than even we lived then, we just knew it was ours. The realtor lady said someone else was looking at it, but we knew it was ours and that the other people would pass…they did. From the moment we looked at that house, the flow was instant. Setting up ourselves to get that house was easy, the mortgage was easy, and everything in between. On the day we signed for that house, a rainbow appeared in the sky…reassuring me we were indeed in the right flow. We adored that house for three years.

Hmmm, I once transferred jobs because the signs were there and that flow was easy. The signs haven’t always been easy in some aspects, but they’re still there to help me along my way. Maybe I’m not always on the right flow, but that doesn’t mean I’m not always protected, guided, being useful along the way.