God in the Card deck preview

Hi! I have been on this unique journey for some time now. Part of the complication of it is that I have a strong faith in God, yet am a high intuitive. For many years, I felt I had to choose one or the other side of myself and that never really worked out. If I tried to be more intuitive and only hang out with psychic people, God would plant someone right in front of me to help them with their faith. If I tried to be more into the faith in God path only, God would plant someone else right in front of me to talk about the person’s gifts or something else needed directly by me. The struggle was real for many years.

Sometimes I’ve wanted to teach people about a loving God as I know him, but then I’d wonder how that would evolve. It would be a picture I’d be scared of. I mean, are lots of people going to come to me for their spiritual needs? Can I be the person that helps them? Would others think, because I wasn’t using a bible as my main preaching point, that I wasn’t authentic? Lots and lots of things like that went through my head sometimes and the pressure was real.

Somehow though, I realized that I’m clearly a niche’ person offering a niche’ view and services. While I don’t know how well people will think I fit, I do know I fit somewhere and that’s important. If I am in this position of feelings about God or being gifted or both, then someone, somewhere is feeling a little lost too and I can be that person to shed some light on their life. I don’t need to think in terms of the fear thoughts. I can think in terms of, “I will help whomever I need to as I am led or they are led to me.” It’s all about one step at a time, one person at a time, one moment at a time. My little niche’ fits this world and there are people looking for and needing what I offer. God wouldn’t have made me strong between worlds if there wasn’t a need. Coming to this realization is a huge thing for me and it shifted things in a magnificent way.

So, as part of that thinking, I’ve created a “tarot-type” deck that’s meant to be an alternative consideration in an intuitive way. I will be offering it soon. The objective is to do what tarot cards do, shuffle, focus, pull a card or two to ponder.

I don’t consider cards of any sort (tarot, lenormand, oracle) to be solutions. They are merely thoughts to ponder. If a card confirms your thoughts, great. If a card points out something amiss, great too. You’ve still got to do the work, figure things out, and make decisions. Nothing in the cards can do that for you. Only you can shape and create your life. You are always the captain of your ship.

I will have pictures and ordering information soon. Thank you for being here!

A new project, have you been thinking of one to pursue?

I’ve been told I’d write a book for years. I wrote a little one many years ago about how best to navigate life, some color knowledge, and other tidbits I thought a young person should know. However, I was still getting messages in various readings that there was another book and this one would be of great importance.

I was faced with the “do the book” thought the other day. I am like, “Okay, I will speak on a loving, comforting God”. I figure, maybe I will have enough stuff this time to make something of substance.

Then, the idea came to me to take this opportunity to write about a loving, comforting God in a different way than I’d seen anywhere else. It’s a bit “out of the box”, but then, I’ve been blazing new trails for years, this would be just another trail for people to consider on their journey.

I was talking with a friend yesterday and she gave me another aspect to consider. I said to her, “I am not sure who would even want this when I’m done.” She said she knew of at least one person who would. I also heard, in Spirit, “People want to hear from God, but not necessarily by way of the Bible.” Hmm. I guess that’s that.

On that note, coming soon, I will have a written way for you to consider a loving, comforting path with God in an unusual perspective.

Sometimes, you are led to certain places to show other people it can be done

I sometimes ask God what to write here. From there, I am usually reminded of a memory or thought. I figure, “Okay.” Here’s today’s thought, “Sometimes you are led to certain places or to certain experiences to show other people it can be done.”

We’d made some friends in a neighborhood where we bought a house and lived in for a time. After we moved out of the house, we’d moved into a little RV back in my hometown. I remember us visiting these friends and telling them we’d moved into a little RV and were staying in that until we figured out our next house move. They’d looked at us odd as they’d never heard of such a thing; however, somewhere down the line, they looked into a little RV for one of their sons and his girlfriend. To give them their own space, yet put them in the yard. If we hadn’t done it first, they may not have seen that as an option.

Another neighbor bought the same riding lawn mower and motorcycle as we had. In general conversations, we said what we loved about these things we used. When it came time to buy the lawnmower or when the lady wanted to buy her husband a motorcycle as a surprise, both times she chose what we had. In a way that seemed kind of odd, to be “copied” like that, but then again, if one does mention the great qualities of what they have, some think it’s a good idea to follow along in that regard.

These are two random memories come to mind. The point is, we are interacting to help each other in some way. Sometimes we know it, like going to school, taking a course, collaborating on a project. Other times, we don’t know it because we share the information then move forward with our lives, like chatting with some stranger in a diner. We think we’re just chatting. What we actually do is provide information they somehow will need in their own future.

It’s fascinating and vital really. No one person can know everything, that’s part of why communication and interacting is important. If you don’t know what you need to know, getting out and about will present someone on your path with the knowledge you need. This is a truth.

I am a high intuitive with a firm faith in God.

I don’t know how to define myself, to anyone really. I have several psychic gifts, but also a firm belief that God takes care of me and my needs. I’ve been walking this middle road for some time. For several years, I cried about it. For those same years, I tried to choose between them. I cried more.

God never did let me let go of anything. If I think I’d only do one gift, he’d bring someone else before me asking about another gift I have. This went on and on for some time too. I can safely say this goes on even today.

In general, by now, most people know me by two things, my faith, and my ability to read colors. These are the things people usually look to me for. Talking about that now, where does that define me? Where does that take me?

At work, alone with my thoughts, I ask this every single day there. I don’t really come up with an answer. I figure if I had an answer, I’d have a focus. The one way to grow a life is to have focus. That’s the general idea I read everywhere.

The thing I’ve wanted to do the longest is teach people about a life with God as I have. The life with God is based on a working relationship rather than shame or religion and is something I’ve wanted to create for years. Maybe, somewhere down the line, that will happen.

God has put people before me who needed exactly that perspective. I have seen these people shed fear, judgement, and pain based on the comforting words I said to them. I am amazed each time it happens.

I know it only takes one person, one bit of words, one hug…to really help someone sometimes. When I am that vessel, in that way, it is felt deeply. It is felt by the person gaining light and by me for being able to witness it.

I saw Steve Harvey say he had a dream to get on T.V. He said he had that dream since he was a child. Despite the troubling years, he held on to that. As I sit here now, I wonder about my own thing. I can hold on to this dream, despite what I don’t see, and trust that God has a right timing if it’s meant to be.

Aside from that, I can continue to be my best in all of my awesomeness because that’s how it should be.

I will breathe, keep trying to focus, but mostly trust in God’s care of my life.

God Called

I’ve been trying to create a business/career of my own for years now. I figured long ago if I worked hard for someone else, why can’t I work hard for myself. It’s been a journey that I haven’t quite gotten anywhere with, yet evolving has happened.

I tried many things, making jewelry, learning life insurance, baking cakes, dying scarves, crocheting items, etc. I learned lots of different things along the way and also learned other intuitive skills that I discovered I have. The list is rather long and still doesn’t encompass very much. That in itself is amazing to me. My main specialties include reading colors (from random picks to whole wardrobe choices), writing intuitive encouragement/comfort letters (still my favorite), to giving intuitive advice in random spoken conversation (I’ve hit lots of bulls eyes with this one).

So, I have gained more skills and more knowledge. That’s awesome, yet none of it has created a business that’s sustained me and my family.

I’ve always said it must be divine timing more than my own wants because I’ve tried to become many different things. I’ve even thought of becoming a preacher of God’s love, but that’s just too big of shoes to fill I think.

Sometimes, when there’s a quiet moment, memories that become insight show up. There are two distinct memories that showed up about this and it’s when “God Called”. It totally speaks of divine timing and that’s a cue for me to just chill, relax, and flow.

So, here’s the two memories. Joyce Meyer said she was called by God to start a ministry. She was okay with that, tried to work another job in her “starting out/transitioning” stage, but the job kept getting in the way of her ministry. It’s what God wanted her to now focus on and he was being stern about it. So, she let go of how she thought she should make her living and became a full-time minister because that was her divine timing and direct direction from God at that time. It wouldn’t have worked before that time. It may not have worked if she’d have passed it on by. It worked in the time God spoke to her directly about using her gifts exclusively to be of service.

The other memory is a recent one and that’s probably how this whole “pondering thoughts for my own life” bit happened. I was watching a conference on YouTube involving Carol Pate. She got into how her life evolved into becoming a psychic detective. I was fascinated. The bit about divine timing though…okay. She says she was working full-time for a major corporation, then was offered a better job with more incentives several states away. While she pondered that, a career she was doing well at, God called her into going full-time with her psychic gifts to become a psychic detective. She said didn’t expect that, had no clue really where to begin, but God said it was time. So she followed God’s lead and that’s what she does.

In a quiet moment, these thoughts were brought to my attention and helped me see that divine timing is as crucial as I think it is. It is best for me to do what I do, make the most of every day, and flow with how things are going. If I see God in one minute, he’s there in the next…this includes areas of my life I am trying to “push” forward. Life isn’t meant to be pushed. Explored, sure. Bravery, absolutely. Sharing Love, yes.

Expectations of Others, of Self

I have lots of time to talk to myself at my current job. It gives me revelations and it also gives me a lot of “right”, “right”, “exactly” to myself. I have mixed feelings about my job. There isn’t much social interaction, but there’s also lots of quiet and “do my own job, not anyone else’s”. It’s repetitive, yet that’s part of the simpleness of it. On and on I think of these things.

So, on this particular night, I was thinking about the expectations of others and of oneself. Maybe part of the reason I haven’t necessarily gotten to where I want to be in life is because it’s very unconventional and how would others handle that?

Like, I believe in God for my path, that’s always been there, but I am also highly intuitive…getting insight from colors, tarot cards, conversations, etc. I love all of this about me, but wonder about how well that will go over with others.

One of the main questions people ask is, “What do you do?” For years I have said, “I work at the Waffle.” I’ve done it off and on for over 20 years that some folks are surprised I am not there any longer.

So, say I decide to really shine in my intuitive gifts and offer advice and perspectives to help people see a view of their life that isn’t “covered” in fear, expectations, bias, people wanting to limit you, etc. Just some advice from someone in neutral territory saying, “You can be this brave. You can take that leap. You can say no. You can decide this doesn’t fit your lifestyle anymore.” etc.

When someone asks me what I do for a living from that point of decision, I can then say, “I give intuitive advice.” That sounds good to me and general enough to not scare someone off of the conversation altogether.

So then, if someone were to ask a relative what I do and that relative knows what I do, but isn’t really into it, it is possible that person may change the subject, may say something encouraging, or may say I was going to hell.

I guess, looking at it like this, that’s a broad spectrum of answers and it really amounts to people’s comfort zones for what I do. Some are okay with it, some aren’t, and some just look at you oddly from that moment on.

However, God has put me directly in some people’s paths to help aid their journey with my intuitive insights. I have given encouragement via writing letters, reading cards, listening to colors, having random conversations, and maybe other ways I haven’t realized just yet.

This helps me see, in this moment, that people will feel how they choose to feel. I must be who I am and know that there are people out there needing my particular kind of helpfulness.

Yes, there are those that may say I am wrong or going to hell, but those people obviously aren’t ones I am to help. What matters most are the people out there that will come to me or cross my path in such a way that I know I am to give them some much needed words of comfort. Those are the ones I shine best for.

So, labels, they are what they are, but being okay with being me in a more open way is something to work on and be comfortable with. This is where I am at.

Maybe you want to move forward in some way in your own life, but expectations and pondering of just how brave you can be on your own stop you from being your best in a comfortable, flowing way?

Opinions of others or the blocks you place on your own thinking, shouldn’t stop your growth. For every person who thinks you’re “doing it wrong”, there is another person waiting to meet you in all of your shining uniqueness. How about that? Don’t you want to meet them too?

Having Faith, part 2

I am feeling the zone, so here’s more of the thinking thoughts.

I may loose one or two of you right here with this paragraph. I am okay with that. I believe Jesus, according to the bible, came to teach us how to live that one-on-one with God. I don’t believe it’s about Jesus being a Savior as in he lost his life for our sake. I think, if you were to look at the Jesus passages and do your best to live in the way Jesus lived, your life would take a dramatic turn for the better and more peace will come to you.

Jesus trusted God completely…with every aspect of his life. If he needed clarity, he found a quiet spot and prayed. If he needed help with a situation, he prayed. If he felt led by God to do something, he did it.

This is how I live with God. A direct communication of love, faith, and understanding.

In the bible there is a statement saying: Jesus answered, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” Many, many people believe that means through believing in Jesus as their Savior by dying on the Cross for them.

What if, just…for thought, what if it means to live a life like Jesus did? I believe it was about trusting God as one LIVES, not as thinking you’re saved because he died for you. He died because the mortal powers that be wanted to silence his message. He died because no one in power wanted anyone to think for themselves.

To me, faith is trusting God for my own path. Don’t get me wrong, there are some fine preachers and some beautiful churches. If you feel comfortable with the messages you get by attending there, by all means, please do continue to follow that guidance.

However, if you’re still searching, consider looking this way and see what you come up with.

There is a preacher I know that I’d listen to every week if I wanted to convert to being a Pentecostal. He is a fine, fine man. I like my jeans and shorts. There is another preacher I used to tend to as a customer in a Waffle. Talking to him on any given day leads me to not think he’s got anything to teach me on Sunday morning. Maybe he does and I just don’t know it, but I just haven’t felt led to be there. Other people have, obviously. I am okay with that too.

I think it’s okay to be led by those speaking to your soul and bringing light into your life. I also think it’s okay to check in with your own self, your own prayers, and your own guidance. No one knows you and your needs better than God.

No matter who you are or what kind of path you walk, may you find peace and understanding along the way. No matter what your path is, if you need more light, I would be happy to write one of my “handwritten hugs” snail mail letters to you. Yes, I feel they are God led, but not all of them are religious. Some of the letters are simply, “Life’s hard sometimes. It’s okay to cry. Try again tomorrow.”

Having Faith

What does this mean? This means many different things to many different people. This post may help your path; then again, it may not. I am not looking to convince you or convert you. I am simply going to write a little bit about what it could mean to have faith. You can do what you like with it.

I believe faith is a very personal thing. Some people read their bible religiously and “wear” their faith every minute of every day. Others go to church on Sunday morning, maybe looking for some peace, maybe trying to wash away all that they’ve done that week.

For me, as long as I can recall, I have trusted God. I sometimes get angry with him, fuss, stop communicating like a pouting child, then go back to knowing I’m in his grace and care. It goes on like this…through the years.

People have told me I can’t act like that. Why shouldn’t I?! God already knows I am a moody woman. He knows I pray about some things, get frustrated about others, and wonder why some of my prayers aren’t answered “yesterday”. If he wanted to be in a partnership with someone less moody, there’s plenty to choose from.

However, God, according to my understanding, is there as long as he’s invited. In that thinking, he’s there for me no matter my moods. He understands me.

I believe my own relationship with God is like most everything else in my life, a lot different from the norm. I read the bible only if a verse comes to mind in some way, either one I love, someone gave to me, or need to look up specifics. I sometimes go to church, sometimes not. I believe it’s a one-on-one relationship whereby God contributes as much as I ask for, allow, and trust.

I also believe everyone has to find the spiritual path that speaks to their soul. Sometimes people don’t believe they have souls so they’re not open to anything of that nature and that’s okay. Other people believe in spiritual paths that aren’t of the acceptable God persuasion, like Wiccan, Pagan, or something such.

I can talk with them just as well as I talk with anyone else. I can only help to build faith in someone looking for the kind of faith I have. Wow, that’s profound even for me this morning. Did you read it? Did it sink in? Read it again. It’s a powerful statement.

With all of that faith, I am still a highly gifted intuitive who believes in talking with spirits and spiritual helpers (angels and people). This puts me in a strange spot. To be truthful, it was an uncomfortable spot for many years. It’s hard to talk with many religious people about being gifted in this way because lots of people believe the two shouldn’t mix. Well, they do, in me. I believe in God for my uniqueness and that’s what I claim.

Now, all that said, what about having faith? Have I touched on that yet? I hope so. Maybe not. Having faith, in my thinking, means trusting God and following the flow of guidance for being helpful to others, being true to oneself, and knowing I am always loved.

How do you do that? You feel the answers within yourself and go with that. Lots of people call this intuition. Lots of them call it God’s Guidance. I believe, no matter one’s path, it IS the guidance of one’s truth.

I believe it’s okay to make mistakes and get it wrong. I don’t believe it’s about shame or somehow not thinking you are enough. Doing your best is what it’s all about. Some days your best may be awesome. Other days your best may be trying to think only positive thoughts and eating one meal that day.

You are unique. There is no one else in this world like you. No one else in this world that can make a difference like you. Because of this, you are enough. YOU are ALWAYS enough.

I hope I’ve touched on having faith here. I am feeling in the zone and may write more about it for the next post. Enjoy.

Learning something new, redoing a project

I feel led to write about something that may seem ordinary, it’s the blanket I am currently crocheting. That blanket is a great analogy for several things in life though and here’s how I view it.

A friend commissioned me to crochet a blanket. We discussed what she wanted. In particular, she wanted a design with lots of squares and a certain background color.

I started with the squares and was super excited with how they were turning out. That was a project within itself…squares. I had several piles going. After making each square, I then bordered the squares with the background color. The project still looked like it was going well.

After making most of the squares, I started combining them into the final blanket. I chose the only join I knew how to do. I didn’t care very much for the join, but I had not found another join I liked or felt confident about trying.

Yesterday I looked at that blanket and was just completely unsatisfied with the joining of the squares. It was annoying me that the blanket wouldn’t be laying flat because the join I chose was a ridge type join.

So, I stopped joining and started taking the blanket apart. I thought I would have to take the blanket apart in a way that would have given me more of a project to recreate, but then, thank God after prayers, I remembered I’d crocheted the blanket only in rows one way and it was nothing much to take the blanket apart that way. This was a huge improvement as I only lost a couple of finished squares in that effort and not the huge backward slide I felt I would be doing.

I then went to Youtube and looked up crochet joining squares. One of the videos actually listed the join I was doing. I was glad to find it’s a valid join, but it wasn’t a neat join. In other news, I did come across a project where that join fit nicely and complimented the blanket. That helped me see the join I was doing had value, just not with the project I was doing.

I came across a video that showed a join I figured I could try. I watched the video twice, saw that it would be the perfect join for the square design I had made, and attempted it.

Let me tell you, I was SO happy to see that the new join was bringing the blanket up to a better level of beauty than the first one and my feeling about completing that blanket as an exceptional bit of work was much better than before.

What did that involve? It involved trying what I knew, not being satisfied, ripping out some of the work and time I put into it, and seeking out a solution that simply had to be better for this particular blanket.

I am going to tell you, ripping out a crochet project really isn’t for the faint of heart. Crochet projects take time more than anything. To rip means some of your time is like double gone. However, I just couldn’t look at the blanket and see where it would be extra lovely when finished. Now, because I backtracked some and found a new join technique, I am definitely creating a blanket I know will be extra lovely when finished.

Maybe you are in the same situation with something in your life…maybe a crochet project, maybe a different kind of project, maybe even a relationship. Saying to yourself, “I’ve invested time, money, and feelings into this (especially a relationship), I must not rip it apart,” is just setting yourself up to keep that uneasy feeling within. It’s not thinking of how the unraveling, while upsetting, will help you to find a different way to create or live and make something marvelously lovely in your life.

I want to encourage you with this post. I want to encourage you to rip apart what isn’t really giving you that awesomely good vibe. I want you to seek something else and try it, no matter how different and new it is. I want you to be bold for yourself. I know somewhere in your life you were bold about something. I sometimes remember times when I was bold and it amazes me today that I did those things. Somewhere in your vibe is that boldness. Wear it with all the awesomeness you can hold.

Pray for Another, Pray for their Joy

I read the other day that it’s a good idea to pray for someone else for 30 days. I imagine I’d read it before, but this time it stuck in my head as something to actually do.

So, I’ve picked two people, not told anyone who they are, and am praying for them. I am praying for Joy in their lives. I believe there must be lots that will be shifted to better if Joy were present in their lives. I believe the vibe raising to the feeling of Joy is an elevation that is really powerful and really high on that “vibe-o-meter” of feelings.

I’ve only begun this experiment, so I don’t know how it will go. I may very well make this a continual part of my routine, focused elevating prayer. I may also pray for other people I don’t know. I’ve done that before. I’ve had people ask me to pray for them because they felt God listened to me more than them. Maybe their own relationship with God was precarious? Maybe they weren’t taught the relationship can be something deeper? Maybe, as in my situation, one lady in particular just felt like God was listening to me because I was always talking about God taking care of my life.

I am happy to pray for people. I am happy when I send out the Handwritten Hugs. I am trusting of God. I love sharing in a conversation about a one-on-one with God. God’s put me in that spot before and it is literally profound…like a host of angels stopped in to bear witness as a little extra vibe alive in that moment. Definitely.

In this post, I’d like to encourage you to pray for someone for 30 days. It can be simple, like, “Dear God, I am praying for so-and-so. I pray for Joy in their lives.” That’s it. That’s as simple as I am doing too. You can pray for healing, peace, improved relationships, etc. Mostly, I’d encourage praying for Joy. Joy encompasses so much good…I like all that it covers. If you’re new to praying with personal interaction intent, this is the perfect opportunity to grow your faith.