Sometimes Faith Falters

I am here to post about faith building, having a great one-on-one with God, and encouraging your individual path doing the best you can. Most of my posts here, or anywhere, you will find that.

However, sometimes faith falters. It’s like hitting a pothole on the highway or walking into a hole in the lawn that the dog made. Just when you think you’re doing well and sort of proud of yourself, a dip happens.

Sometimes when this dip happens you’re able to recover quickly. In the situation of walking on your lawn, your body adjusts itself and it’s almost as if you didn’t even have a misstep. Other times, you actually trip and fall as a result of the hole you didn’t see. You may even sprain your ankle, break that ankle, or even cry because you are now in this position.

I think faith is like this on occasion. Sometimes we falter and cry, wondering how come we aren’t where we’d like to be in life…for one reason or another or one way or another. I think it’s perfectly okay to cry, to feel a bit adrift, to wonder if one’s faith is strong enough, to take the time to think on how far one has come, how far one has to go, to get to where one journeys to. I think this is especially true if you think you’re trying your best.

I know, for me, there are times I falter. I wonder why I haven’t gotten to some sort of stability in ways I have been aiming for in some aspects of my life. I take that time out and cry. I did it last night and this morning. At the end, I then go back to my grounded self and hold my faith close. No matter how rough the hole or the situation, my faith has always been there and will continue to be so.

I hope, any time you falter, you cry if you need to, but then you get up, dust yourself off, and keep going. Believe in yourself, in the life you’re creating, and feeling yourself get there. 🙂 Sometimes the journey is longer than expected, but I believe the destination we strive for is attainable, if not, it will be something even better for us because that’s the way of divine grace.

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Having Faith, part 2

I am feeling the zone, so here’s more of the thinking thoughts.

I may loose one or two of you right here with this paragraph. I am okay with that. I believe Jesus, according to the bible, came to teach us how to live that one-on-one with God. I don’t believe it’s about Jesus being a Savior as in he lost his life for our sake. I think, if you were to look at the Jesus passages and do your best to live in the way Jesus lived, your life would take a dramatic turn for the better and more peace will come to you.

Jesus trusted God completely…with every aspect of his life. If he needed clarity, he found a quiet spot and prayed. If he needed help with a situation, he prayed. If he felt led by God to do something, he did it.

This is how I live with God. A direct communication of love, faith, and understanding.

In the bible there is a statement saying: Jesus answered, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” Many, many people believe that means through believing in Jesus as their Savior by dying on the Cross for them.

What if, just…for thought, what if it means to live a life like Jesus did? I believe it was about trusting God as one LIVES, not as thinking you’re saved because he died for you. He died because the mortal powers that be wanted to silence his message. He died because no one in power wanted anyone to think for themselves.

To me, faith is trusting God for my own path. Don’t get me wrong, there are some fine preachers and some beautiful churches. If you feel comfortable with the messages you get by attending there, by all means, please do continue to follow that guidance.

However, if you’re still searching, consider looking this way and see what you come up with.

There is a preacher I know that I’d listen to every week if I wanted to convert to being a Pentecostal. He is a fine, fine man. I like my jeans and shorts. There is another preacher I used to tend to as a customer in a Waffle. Talking to him on any given day leads me to not think he’s got anything to teach me on Sunday morning. Maybe he does and I just don’t know it, but I just haven’t felt led to be there. Other people have, obviously. I am okay with that too.

I think it’s okay to be led by those speaking to your soul and bringing light into your life. I also think it’s okay to check in with your own self, your own prayers, and your own guidance. No one knows you and your needs better than God.

No matter who you are or what kind of path you walk, may you find peace and understanding along the way. No matter what your path is, if you need more light, I would be happy to write one of my “handwritten hugs” snail mail letters to you. Yes, I feel they are God led, but not all of them are religious. Some of the letters are simply, “Life’s hard sometimes. It’s okay to cry. Try again tomorrow.”

Time….

Time is an interesting and important part of life. People ask you, “How are you spending your time?” You tell them how you’re taking care of the household chores, the children, your partner, and working to make a living. That’s a fair response and one most people say, even I do.

That’s just the surface routine of time. It’s how you fill your days, weeks, months, years. So, what am I wanting to say about time that’s different? I want you to understand the value of time. It’s something I’ve come to see in my own life over the past couple of years and it’s vitally important.

Do you deeply feel the moment you’re in? I may have posted about this before. I really do feel strongly about it though.

I’ve come to appreciate my youngest child’s laughter. I feel my husband’s presence while sitting beside him. I appreciate the perfect weather days. I feel the depth of my blessings.

Okay, so, what does that have to do with time? Well, the depth of your feelings will give you a richer life. By feeling your life in this way, you create much more than a passing connection. When “time” shifts something, say a child moving into their own place, a parent or partner passing away, a baby born to a short life, or any other experiences that speak of connecting…when time shifts something, you can say you valued the time you were given. You valued. You lived it in depth. You felt the blessing and goodness and love you are/were given. That’s powerful.

As you go through the routine of your day, notice who you’re with…their presence, their love, their added value to your life. Notice it with a depth down to your soul. It will truly make a difference in the kind of life you’re living.

Time doesn’t say, “You can have him/her for just one more week. Cram all of what you want to feel, love, and say within that week.” Sometimes time warns you about the limits you’re about to have, most often not. Time asks you to appreciate the moment you’re in at this very breath you’re taking. Time says, “Did you hear that laughter? Did you hug that person with a big hug? Did you speak about how you truly feel? Were you brave enough to go after your dreams? Did you value YOURSELF as a key person making a difference by living your life?” Time says, “Live and feel in the NOW.”

Becoming Ordained

I’ve thought many times over the years to become a a preacher of some sort. Not to preach the Bible, but to preach a loving God. I feel completely lost as to how to go about doing that though. I really am not going to carry around a Bible and preach out of that, no. I am at a loss as to how to explain the simpleness of what I’m trying to teach and give to people.

Well, this week I did the official “become ordained” to be legal in the United States. I figure I can at least start there, being mindful of staying within the law. So now, I’m a legally ordained minister. Yay! Where to go from here.

Well, a friend says to me, “What about becoming a High Priestess?” I’m like, “No, that’s too narrow of a title.” I joked that I’d call myself an “Old Crone”. I figured that wouldn’t get me far either. So, this morning I look up pastor, minister, preacher. I find pastor fitting my goals more than anything else. By the dictionary definition it says “a person having spiritual care of a number of persons”. I figure talking to people about God is all about their spiritual raising. That’s care, right?

Where do I go from here, I don’t know. I do know I’ve talked with people about God and seen the look of comfort and relief on their faces when I share all about God loving them, not shaming them. To see their soul settle into that grace they’ve longed for…it’s amazing.

This is what I’d like to spread more of, the love. I do know not everyone will understand the path, not everyone will even seek out such a path, and I’m okay with that. Somehow, somewhere, there are people needing the messages God puts within me to spread. The messages of love and grace and kindness. I’ll sprinkle that.

Holding Dreams, too big, too bold?

I woke up this morning with the thought I get from time to time. One of teaching about God as Love. It sometimes overpowers me, this thought. To share with as many people as possible…sometimes I see an audience full of people, sometimes just one person face to face…that God simply wants to love you, help guide you, and keep you in his grace.

Then I think, “Who would listen to me? I wouldn’t be teaching from a Bible, but rather from a one-on-one connection as I personally live it. That’s a tall order and makes me feel I’m up against ‘the others’.”

I’ve lived a defensive life for a lot of different reasons at different times. Right now it’s because I do things differently and march to my own drummer. I’m definitely one to pave a new trail and encourage others to do the same. There are worlds to be discovered and a boldness waiting to be harnessed!!

I hesitate with this though. I make fear excuses because I just know someone is going to tell me what I’m doing wrong, especially being psychic too. Being prepared for the defensiveness can be easier and better than I thought though. Maybe I can respond with kindness and care, then let it be.

I am not out to convince the whole world of God’s love. I am simply a tool used by God to speak to those willing to listen. I’ve done it several times already, spoken to those who want a loving God and telling them it’s completely possible to have that. I have personally seen the look of relief and comfort on their faces. The change from thinking God is abandoning them for not sticking to the rules, to realizing it’s really all about love and possibilities and something better than it was before.

Every time this has happened, I’ve felt God so deeply and been so moved, that it really is beyond words. So, maybe this is just a random post about dreams so deep I’m scared to take them. Maybe this is a post about the dreams you hold so close too. Maybe, just maybe, it’s a post about declaring I’m willing to be available and not fearful for all of the awesome possibilities ahead in living that dream. Cheers!!!

Do you really trust God?

There are many people out there claiming to have faith in God; however, they’re not trusting in Him or themselves. They may go to church or read a bible, but they don’t take charge of their life in a way that shows they’re covered by grace or God’s love. Why is that? I can’t answer that for another person.

To my thinking, God is Love. God allows for free will because we do have the right to shape and create our lives as we choose. However, when we choose to add the extra dimension of Him and trust that He’s actively participating, life takes on a whole different vibe. It’s an “up-level of sorts”.

If I have faith, of which I do, how is there room for doubt of His care, grace, and love? There is only room for one decision on that. Do I have doubt, or do I have God? If I have God and I’m doing the best I can in every day, those are pretty good signs of a good life ahead…here and in the hereafter.