Loose the Mom Guilt

A post this morning in a group I partake was all about a woman having “Mom Guilt” between being a business owner and being a Mom. I just want to pass along what I wrote in response….

“I don’t think you should have mom guilt. We can’t be 100% to any one person and part of what makes a great life is finding the balance between “our time” and “work time”. Your child will grow to need some of her own space. You need your own space as well. I think you should loose the guilt, be present when you’re there with her, and also acknowledge there are other kinds of “space” in working. When you cook, you don’t feel guilty to be cooking for food nourishment, right? So, when you do business, you shouldn’t feel that guilt when you’re actually still providing for family financial nourishment. Balance is key, not guilt.”

If you’re a Mom, I’d like you to think on this some and really let it sink in. Maybe, just maybe, you can take this new thought forward and find the balance within the life you’re creating…for the best of all of your family’s needs. Cheers.

Life and Time, part 2

So, more about time. I am not suggesting you use every minute to be productive or fill in every bit of space with “something”. I am simply suggesting you become more aware of it and how you use it.

One of my favorite things to do is lay on my grass and look up at the sky. It’s using up time, yes, but it also reminds me of the vastness of the Universe that has been created. It reminds me to appreciate the moment I am in, to breathe, and simply feel the wind.

I’ve been in this lifetime for about 48 years. Some years have been more productive than others. Some moments I’m super proud of, other moments I’d rather not remember. I can’t change what was behind me. Sometimes an apology can be enough to fix something I’ve done, other times…the thing isn’t fixable. Sometimes one must set a boundary based on another’s actions, these things too are fixable in certain situations, other times not.

What this has done for me, especially this year, is to “check-in” with myself about how I’m using my time, what I’m allowing in my life, and how well I’m actually navigating myself.

Do I want to continue a certain relationship, friendship, work environment? Is there enough quality there? Have you made excuses for so long you’ve now considered the brokenness normal? Are you pursuing the dreams you’ve held dear? Are you making excuses for that too?

Okay, let me give you something smaller in the way of time. There are dishes to be done. In the time it takes to make a pot of coffee, I can do a smaller load of dishes. I dislike doing dishes. It’s like they grow and grow and there’s always that lone dish or spoon I miss. However, if I take that moment to wash while a pot of coffee is brewing, I can clean the dishes, then sit down to a cup of coffee AND clean dishes in a span of 10 minutes. That’s somewhat satisfying to me in some small organized way.

Sometimes you find yourself in a rush when it comes to time. It can be for any number of reasons. In the bigger scheme of things, there may be no need to be rushed. Giving yourself calmness in this space is a great gift. You really can’t go any faster than you’re going and having a clearer head allows your vibe to not be ruffled. I ask you, “Do you want to be frustrated in this moment?” Or, “Can you relax while being in traffic or looking for a particular object?” Or, “What if you are late in some way, it’s merely an adjustment to work through.”

Think on these things. How do you see time? How are you handling it? Can you adjust your view in a way that allows you more serenity?

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Life and Time

I think about the life we have and the time we have in it. It doesn’t matter if you believe you’ve only got this one life or you think you’ve come here many times…to then come back another day. Do you know why? Because that’s kind of not relevant in the today that you’re living.

What are you doing with the time you’ve got today? Are you taking care of yourself? Are you showing love to those you have claimed to love? Are you being kind for kindness sake?

In a way, knowing time is passing by can make us impatient. Some of us don’t necessarily want to find ourselves in a long line at the grocery store and others want to be in that perfect relationship already.

Even so, how do you view time? Do you look back on your childhood, maybe one of not much kindness. Do you look back at that first marriage, thankful you’re no longer in it.

Time is really how you’re living in the moments you’re in. On the one hand, you can say, “Okay, that household chore can wait until tomorrow.” On the other hand, I hold my young one extra tight at night to give as much love to her as I can in that moment, knowing one day I won’t be here.

While I’m always speaking on individuality and shining one’s best self, I think time…time itself…may very well trump it. How are you spending your time?

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God in the Card deck preview

Hi! I have been on this unique journey for some time now. Part of the complication of it is that I have a strong faith in God, yet am a high intuitive. For many years, I felt I had to choose one or the other side of myself and that never really worked out. If I tried to be more intuitive and only hang out with psychic people, God would plant someone right in front of me to help them with their faith. If I tried to be more into the faith in God path only, God would plant someone else right in front of me to talk about the person’s gifts or something else needed directly by me. The struggle was real for many years.

Sometimes I’ve wanted to teach people about a loving God as I know him, but then I’d wonder how that would evolve. It would be a picture I’d be scared of. I mean, are lots of people going to come to me for their spiritual needs? Can I be the person that helps them? Would others think, because I wasn’t using a bible as my main preaching point, that I wasn’t authentic? Lots and lots of things like that went through my head sometimes and the pressure was real.

Somehow though, I realized that I’m clearly a niche’ person offering a niche’ view and services. While I don’t know how well people will think I fit, I do know I fit somewhere and that’s important. If I am in this position of feelings about God or being gifted or both, then someone, somewhere is feeling a little lost too and I can be that person to shed some light on their life. I don’t need to think in terms of the fear thoughts. I can think in terms of, “I will help whomever I need to as I am led or they are led to me.” It’s all about one step at a time, one person at a time, one moment at a time. My little niche’ fits this world and there are people looking for and needing what I offer. God wouldn’t have made me strong between worlds if there wasn’t a need. Coming to this realization is a huge thing for me and it shifted things in a magnificent way.

So, as part of that thinking, I’ve created a “tarot-type” deck that’s meant to be an alternative consideration in an intuitive way. I will be offering it soon. The objective is to do what tarot cards do, shuffle, focus, pull a card or two to ponder.

I don’t consider cards of any sort (tarot, lenormand, oracle) to be solutions. They are merely thoughts to ponder. If a card confirms your thoughts, great. If a card points out something amiss, great too. You’ve still got to do the work, figure things out, and make decisions. Nothing in the cards can do that for you. Only you can shape and create your life. You are always the captain of your ship.

I will have pictures and ordering information soon. Thank you for being here!

What if the good growth scares you?

I’ve got some things going on in my life that are in the developing stages. One step has to happen before the next step, etc. This is actually a good thing for me as changes tend to unsettle me…like digging dirt that’s been minding it’s own business so as to plant something beautiful or helpful there.

That said, change hasn’t always been my best vibe. Maybe some people love reinventing themselves. Maybe others can change their vibe to be sassy one minute, serious the next. Maybe I am overthinking this too. I am probably overthinking it.

So, I am excited and happy with these new changes, even as I am freaking out about them. I am looking forward to this new thing, that new thing. I figure if I’m going through this, there are clear signs these things should be happening right now, then I remind myself that I will also be equipped in anything I need along the way and thereafter.

Are you going through some good changes you’ve wanted? Are you going through some changes you didn’t expect? Do you feel intrigued by the possibilities? Would you rather hide away for a time to ponder, then adjust? Are you like the kid who didn’t want to do something your parent asked you to…kicking and screaming the whole time…then, when you get there, you’re thrilled at what’s going on?!

I believe that I am equipped, even when there are changes I may or may not be aware of, and that means I am okay. I believe the changes will uplevel my life in ways that bring blessings into my life and also a new ease. I believe the changes will also benefit others in some way.

On one of the changes, I wondered what the benefit of it would be. I was told in Spirit that there are people needing what I’m about to offer. It doesn’t get clearer than that. Life has changes from time to time. It’s okay to be fearful, it’s also okay to walk gently forward, whatever brought you here, has brought you into something beautiful, blessed, blissful.

Ease in Life

A thought came to mind the other day, “If I feel I am being taken care of in this moment, I must breathe with the ease that makes it so.” I know it’s a powerful statement and one worth BEing in.

Sometimes I can be in that moment and relax and trust that things are all working out in my favor in divine timing. Sometimes, the stress still happens and I’m just doing my best with each passing moment.

I no longer tell myself the negative crap. That doesn’t solve anything and I’m doing my best in every day, that’s all I got. It’s become much easier to remember to breathe and flow. However, I will ponder the “how will I pay for this new bill, how will I accomplish this new task, how will things work out”. Maybe it’s a new form of negative crap?

I have also added this reminder: “If I have been brought to this, things will work out in my favor about it.” I now say this one more and it does help in the vibe raising.

As always, do your best, it’s okay to have days where your best doesn’t get very far, and don’t go telling yourself you’re not capable/good enough/able. You can do it.

A new project, have you been thinking of one to pursue?

I’ve been told I’d write a book for years. I wrote a little one many years ago about how best to navigate life, some color knowledge, and other tidbits I thought a young person should know. However, I was still getting messages in various readings that there was another book and this one would be of great importance.

I was faced with the “do the book” thought the other day. I am like, “Okay, I will speak on a loving, comforting God”. I figure, maybe I will have enough stuff this time to make something of substance.

Then, the idea came to me to take this opportunity to write about a loving, comforting God in a different way than I’d seen anywhere else. It’s a bit “out of the box”, but then, I’ve been blazing new trails for years, this would be just another trail for people to consider on their journey.

I was talking with a friend yesterday and she gave me another aspect to consider. I said to her, “I am not sure who would even want this when I’m done.” She said she knew of at least one person who would. I also heard, in Spirit, “People want to hear from God, but not necessarily by way of the Bible.” Hmm. I guess that’s that.

On that note, coming soon, I will have a written way for you to consider a loving, comforting path with God in an unusual perspective.

Sometimes, you are led to certain places to show other people it can be done

I sometimes ask God what to write here. From there, I am usually reminded of a memory or thought. I figure, “Okay.” Here’s today’s thought, “Sometimes you are led to certain places or to certain experiences to show other people it can be done.”

We’d made some friends in a neighborhood where we bought a house and lived in for a time. After we moved out of the house, we’d moved into a little RV back in my hometown. I remember us visiting these friends and telling them we’d moved into a little RV and were staying in that until we figured out our next house move. They’d looked at us odd as they’d never heard of such a thing; however, somewhere down the line, they looked into a little RV for one of their sons and his girlfriend. To give them their own space, yet put them in the yard. If we hadn’t done it first, they may not have seen that as an option.

Another neighbor bought the same riding lawn mower and motorcycle as we had. In general conversations, we said what we loved about these things we used. When it came time to buy the lawnmower or when the lady wanted to buy her husband a motorcycle as a surprise, both times she chose what we had. In a way that seemed kind of odd, to be “copied” like that, but then again, if one does mention the great qualities of what they have, some think it’s a good idea to follow along in that regard.

These are two random memories come to mind. The point is, we are interacting to help each other in some way. Sometimes we know it, like going to school, taking a course, collaborating on a project. Other times, we don’t know it because we share the information then move forward with our lives, like chatting with some stranger in a diner. We think we’re just chatting. What we actually do is provide information they somehow will need in their own future.

It’s fascinating and vital really. No one person can know everything, that’s part of why communication and interacting is important. If you don’t know what you need to know, getting out and about will present someone on your path with the knowledge you need. This is a truth.

God Called

I’ve been trying to create a business/career of my own for years now. I figured long ago if I worked hard for someone else, why can’t I work hard for myself. It’s been a journey that I haven’t quite gotten anywhere with, yet evolving has happened.

I tried many things, making jewelry, learning life insurance, baking cakes, dying scarves, crocheting items, etc. I learned lots of different things along the way and also learned other intuitive skills that I discovered I have. The list is rather long and still doesn’t encompass very much. That in itself is amazing to me. My main specialties include reading colors (from random picks to whole wardrobe choices), writing intuitive encouragement/comfort letters (still my favorite), to giving intuitive advice in random spoken conversation (I’ve hit lots of bulls eyes with this one).

So, I have gained more skills and more knowledge. That’s awesome, yet none of it has created a business that’s sustained me and my family.

I’ve always said it must be divine timing more than my own wants because I’ve tried to become many different things. I’ve even thought of becoming a preacher of God’s love, but that’s just too big of shoes to fill I think.

Sometimes, when there’s a quiet moment, memories that become insight show up. There are two distinct memories that showed up about this and it’s when “God Called”. It totally speaks of divine timing and that’s a cue for me to just chill, relax, and flow.

So, here’s the two memories. Joyce Meyer said she was called by God to start a ministry. She was okay with that, tried to work another job in her “starting out/transitioning” stage, but the job kept getting in the way of her ministry. It’s what God wanted her to now focus on and he was being stern about it. So, she let go of how she thought she should make her living and became a full-time minister because that was her divine timing and direct direction from God at that time. It wouldn’t have worked before that time. It may not have worked if she’d have passed it on by. It worked in the time God spoke to her directly about using her gifts exclusively to be of service.

The other memory is a recent one and that’s probably how this whole “pondering thoughts for my own life” bit happened. I was watching a conference on YouTube involving Carol Pate. She got into how her life evolved into becoming a psychic detective. I was fascinated. The bit about divine timing though…okay. She says she was working full-time for a major corporation, then was offered a better job with more incentives several states away. While she pondered that, a career she was doing well at, God called her into going full-time with her psychic gifts to become a psychic detective. She said didn’t expect that, had no clue really where to begin, but God said it was time. So she followed God’s lead and that’s what she does.

In a quiet moment, these thoughts were brought to my attention and helped me see that divine timing is as crucial as I think it is. It is best for me to do what I do, make the most of every day, and flow with how things are going. If I see God in one minute, he’s there in the next…this includes areas of my life I am trying to “push” forward. Life isn’t meant to be pushed. Explored, sure. Bravery, absolutely. Sharing Love, yes.

A Hotel Analogy

I recently got a job at a small, three floor hotel in my little town. The hotel mainly services the railroad nearby, but also travelers looking for a place to rest. I knew the hotel serviced the railroad. There is a smaller hotel on the other side of town that serviced the railroad to begin with many years ago.

As I work there, I begin to see what a beehive of a hotel this is. There are people checking in and checking out at all of the hours of the day. Each one coming or going based on their work or traveling needs.

Some of them don’t say anything as they move about, some give a simple “hello”, and others introduce themselves as regular guests of the hotel.

As I worked through the hotel rooms, cleaning them one by one, the front desk lady rents these rooms out. I had cleaned one room in particular and, shortly thereafter, it got booked out.

That helped me see just how things really do come and go. Then I got to seeing it from a deeper perspective of, each person has their own room and space. Sometimes I don’t see any guest at all, sometimes I see one or two, sometimes they talk to me.

That’s how life is. We meet some people, pass by others, really connect on a deeper level with those that stop and have conversations. Sometimes it may seem like nothing, but it’s always something being created, moving, and even being quiet.

I find it fascinating! As you go about your day, I want to encourage you to make new friends, reach out to those friends you value, let go of those that no longer serve your needs. Notice it’s all an ebb and a flow, things moving around you and can move according to your own choices.