A new project, have you been thinking of one to pursue?

I’ve been told I’d write a book for years. I wrote a little one many years ago about how best to navigate life, some color knowledge, and other tidbits I thought a young person should know. However, I was still getting messages in various readings that there was another book and this one would be of great importance.

I was faced with the “do the book” thought the other day. I am like, “Okay, I will speak on a loving, comforting God”. I figure, maybe I will have enough stuff this time to make something of substance.

Then, the idea came to me to take this opportunity to write about a loving, comforting God in a different way than I’d seen anywhere else. It’s a bit “out of the box”, but then, I’ve been blazing new trails for years, this would be just another trail for people to consider on their journey.

I was talking with a friend yesterday and she gave me another aspect to consider. I said to her, “I am not sure who would even want this when I’m done.” She said she knew of at least one person who would. I also heard, in Spirit, “People want to hear from God, but not necessarily by way of the Bible.” Hmm. I guess that’s that.

On that note, coming soon, I will have a written way for you to consider a loving, comforting path with God in an unusual perspective.

I am a high intuitive with a firm faith in God.

I don’t know how to define myself, to anyone really. I have several psychic gifts, but also a firm belief that God takes care of me and my needs. I’ve been walking this middle road for some time. For several years, I cried about it. For those same years, I tried to choose between them. I cried more.

God never did let me let go of anything. If I think I’d only do one gift, he’d bring someone else before me asking about another gift I have. This went on and on for some time too. I can safely say this goes on even today.

In general, by now, most people know me by two things, my faith, and my ability to read colors. These are the things people usually look to me for. Talking about that now, where does that define me? Where does that take me?

At work, alone with my thoughts, I ask this every single day there. I don’t really come up with an answer. I figure if I had an answer, I’d have a focus. The one way to grow a life is to have focus. That’s the general idea I read everywhere.

The thing I’ve wanted to do the longest is teach people about a life with God as I have. The life with God is based on a working relationship rather than shame or religion and is something I’ve wanted to create for years. Maybe, somewhere down the line, that will happen.

God has put people before me who needed exactly that perspective. I have seen these people shed fear, judgement, and pain based on the comforting words I said to them. I am amazed each time it happens.

I know it only takes one person, one bit of words, one hug…to really help someone sometimes. When I am that vessel, in that way, it is felt deeply. It is felt by the person gaining light and by me for being able to witness it.

I saw Steve Harvey say he had a dream to get on T.V. He said he had that dream since he was a child. Despite the troubling years, he held on to that. As I sit here now, I wonder about my own thing. I can hold on to this dream, despite what I don’t see, and trust that God has a right timing if it’s meant to be.

Aside from that, I can continue to be my best in all of my awesomeness because that’s how it should be.

I will breathe, keep trying to focus, but mostly trust in God’s care of my life.

Having Faith, part 2

I am feeling the zone, so here’s more of the thinking thoughts.

I may loose one or two of you right here with this paragraph. I am okay with that. I believe Jesus, according to the bible, came to teach us how to live that one-on-one with God. I don’t believe it’s about Jesus being a Savior as in he lost his life for our sake. I think, if you were to look at the Jesus passages and do your best to live in the way Jesus lived, your life would take a dramatic turn for the better and more peace will come to you.

Jesus trusted God completely…with every aspect of his life. If he needed clarity, he found a quiet spot and prayed. If he needed help with a situation, he prayed. If he felt led by God to do something, he did it.

This is how I live with God. A direct communication of love, faith, and understanding.

In the bible there is a statement saying: Jesus answered, “I am the way, and the truth, and the life. No one comes to the Father except through Me.” Many, many people believe that means through believing in Jesus as their Savior by dying on the Cross for them.

What if, just…for thought, what if it means to live a life like Jesus did? I believe it was about trusting God as one LIVES, not as thinking you’re saved because he died for you. He died because the mortal powers that be wanted to silence his message. He died because no one in power wanted anyone to think for themselves.

To me, faith is trusting God for my own path. Don’t get me wrong, there are some fine preachers and some beautiful churches. If you feel comfortable with the messages you get by attending there, by all means, please do continue to follow that guidance.

However, if you’re still searching, consider looking this way and see what you come up with.

There is a preacher I know that I’d listen to every week if I wanted to convert to being a Pentecostal. He is a fine, fine man. I like my jeans and shorts. There is another preacher I used to tend to as a customer in a Waffle. Talking to him on any given day leads me to not think he’s got anything to teach me on Sunday morning. Maybe he does and I just don’t know it, but I just haven’t felt led to be there. Other people have, obviously. I am okay with that too.

I think it’s okay to be led by those speaking to your soul and bringing light into your life. I also think it’s okay to check in with your own self, your own prayers, and your own guidance. No one knows you and your needs better than God.

No matter who you are or what kind of path you walk, may you find peace and understanding along the way. No matter what your path is, if you need more light, I would be happy to write one of my “handwritten hugs” snail mail letters to you. Yes, I feel they are God led, but not all of them are religious. Some of the letters are simply, “Life’s hard sometimes. It’s okay to cry. Try again tomorrow.”

What can you do?

If you’re a person of a giving nature, what is it that you can give in your own way? It doesn’t have to be something costly either. Helpfulness can be something as simple as checking in with a friend and just listening to what they’re going through.

One of my knacks is writing intuitive comfort letters. I write these to people I know as well as people I don’t know. Sometimes people order them for themselves or someone they care about. Sometimes God says to me, “Write a letter to so and so.”

When God tells me to write, I write. I know those letters are important, meaningful, and the person needs comfort or understanding in some way. When I sit down with a particular person’s name, I write what comes to mind. Sometimes it’s a memory of something I struggled with, sometimes it’s encouragement for something specific…like a person graduating high school or a parent needing to be noticed. Other times it’s feelings and me writing to convey hugs.

I love writing these letters. They’re little, itty, bitty bits of magic that I put into an envelope, it gets delivered, the recipient holds that magic paper, reads it, and finds comfort on a level they couldn’t find or wouldn’t express the need for in any other way.

I don’t know how it works, but it’s a magnificent thing. I am sure there is something you can do for someone else when you feel led, but think your gesture may be too small. Sometimes the smallest of kindnesses bring about the biggest of feelings.

I want to encourage you to give that thing or bit of yourself that you’re feeling led to give. It could be as simple as writing a bible verse on a postcard and mailing it to someone you know or don’t know. It could be a gesture of offering to sit with a relative for a couple of hours just to be there as a presence of comfort.

Think on it, spread your own kindness, send light into someone else’s world.

Time….

Time is an interesting and important part of life. People ask you, “How are you spending your time?” You tell them how you’re taking care of the household chores, the children, your partner, and working to make a living. That’s a fair response and one most people say, even I do.

That’s just the surface routine of time. It’s how you fill your days, weeks, months, years. So, what am I wanting to say about time that’s different? I want you to understand the value of time. It’s something I’ve come to see in my own life over the past couple of years and it’s vitally important.

Do you deeply feel the moment you’re in? I may have posted about this before. I really do feel strongly about it though.

I’ve come to appreciate my youngest child’s laughter. I feel my husband’s presence while sitting beside him. I appreciate the perfect weather days. I feel the depth of my blessings.

Okay, so, what does that have to do with time? Well, the depth of your feelings will give you a richer life. By feeling your life in this way, you create much more than a passing connection. When “time” shifts something, say a child moving into their own place, a parent or partner passing away, a baby born to a short life, or any other experiences that speak of connecting…when time shifts something, you can say you valued the time you were given. You valued. You lived it in depth. You felt the blessing and goodness and love you are/were given. That’s powerful.

As you go through the routine of your day, notice who you’re with…their presence, their love, their added value to your life. Notice it with a depth down to your soul. It will truly make a difference in the kind of life you’re living.

Time doesn’t say, “You can have him/her for just one more week. Cram all of what you want to feel, love, and say within that week.” Sometimes time warns you about the limits you’re about to have, most often not. Time asks you to appreciate the moment you’re in at this very breath you’re taking. Time says, “Did you hear that laughter? Did you hug that person with a big hug? Did you speak about how you truly feel? Were you brave enough to go after your dreams? Did you value YOURSELF as a key person making a difference by living your life?” Time says, “Live and feel in the NOW.”

What about God?

If I had one post to share with you my feelings and relationship with God, it could be this one. Could one post give you that perspective shift you’re seeking? Could one set of words help you see God in a way that calms your soul? Could today be the day you’re in for a change that forever alters your life for the best? Maybe.

I’ve gone to several different denominations of religion. Each had things I’ve learned from. I believe there is something to be learned from just about everything, even if it’s something NOT to do in your own life. That said, I never felt completely at home in any of the churches I’ve visited.

The last church of worship I went to was a Unity Church about an hour from my house. There they teach the Bible in a metaphysical way, with definitions of the words, such as sin (to miss the mark) to give a different view on the Bible. They actually sell tarot cards in their little gift shop, along with other wonderful things. It was the closest I’d come to feeling at home at a church, but that still wasn’t quite right for me. I liked some of what the pastor lady said and some of it, like pressuring us to give to the church in a guilt trip way, spoiled the whole sermon.

I sometimes pictured myself up there on the podium. I wanted to share, even then, a God of love, understanding, and helpfulness. I looked into it actually and it’s like a two year learning process of their views and of the Bible.

It’s not that I dislike the Bible, please don’t think that. There are verses in there I have taken to and will read up on other verses as the need arises. However, there are many versions of the Bible, some religions have taken text out, some have created whole new “messages from God” and it’s all a bit much for me.

I think, while the Bible is a great thing, it isn’t for me personally. I think it can be summed up to something even simpler. Something like…do your best, help one another, know that everyone else is doing their best too. God loves you.

Becoming Ordained

I’ve thought many times over the years to become a a preacher of some sort. Not to preach the Bible, but to preach a loving God. I feel completely lost as to how to go about doing that though. I really am not going to carry around a Bible and preach out of that, no. I am at a loss as to how to explain the simpleness of what I’m trying to teach and give to people.

Well, this week I did the official “become ordained” to be legal in the United States. I figure I can at least start there, being mindful of staying within the law. So now, I’m a legally ordained minister. Yay! Where to go from here.

Well, a friend says to me, “What about becoming a High Priestess?” I’m like, “No, that’s too narrow of a title.” I joked that I’d call myself an “Old Crone”. I figured that wouldn’t get me far either. So, this morning I look up pastor, minister, preacher. I find pastor fitting my goals more than anything else. By the dictionary definition it says “a person having spiritual care of a number of persons”. I figure talking to people about God is all about their spiritual raising. That’s care, right?

Where do I go from here, I don’t know. I do know I’ve talked with people about God and seen the look of comfort and relief on their faces when I share all about God loving them, not shaming them. To see their soul settle into that grace they’ve longed for…it’s amazing.

This is what I’d like to spread more of, the love. I do know not everyone will understand the path, not everyone will even seek out such a path, and I’m okay with that. Somehow, somewhere, there are people needing the messages God puts within me to spread. The messages of love and grace and kindness. I’ll sprinkle that.

Prayer and Peace

Do you pray for answers to certain situations, then don’t have the patience to wait? Do you want a solution right in that instant? Do you think having clues, even ones you may get from a psychic reading or a dear friend, will give you peace of mind?

Even if you have the answers in front of you, knowing which way you’re going, what career you’ll have, where you’ll live next month, etc. You still have to get from here to there. What are you doing with yourself in the meantime? Are you cleaning out what no longer serves you? Are you enjoying the moments you’re living today? Can you be at peace in your life for just a few moments at a time…more so than not?

Seeking answers is all well and good. We ask our friends their opinions, find new knowledge to help us make decisions, and even find quiet moments to pray and listen to God. Whatever it is that will help us, as individuals, find clarity upon our path as we journey through this life.

We must still live that life. Knowing we’ve got a supper date on Friday doesn’t stop the fact that one must cook supper on Tuesday. Having a relaxing Saturday with nothing to do is something awesome to look forward to and a fantastic part of your future reality. Today though, today the grass needs mowing.

This is the ebb and flow of life. What you know, what you decide, what you don’t know, what has to be done in this moment, is all tiny bits of one life. This is why I call life a tapestry lots of times. We are constantly weaving in love, care, comfort, even hurt, tears, loss…all into the life we create for ourselves.

I hope life gives you more peace and you feel your blessings as you’re living them.

Sometimes it’s just about perfect in God’s connection

I’m sitting here, wondering what to do in a new post. I am reminded of meeting my husband over 20 years ago. It is one of the most pivotal moments of my life. All that I am not, the softer side, the more giving side…he is. All that he is not, in charge, keeping track of everything, keeping track of the “ducks”…I am. We make a really fantastic pair.

He also opened my eyes to other things in this world I didn’t grow up knowing. I think on what my life would have been like without him…of the men I’d dated before him. I really, really wanted this one guy. I don’t know why though as he drank a lot and I wasn’t into that. Thank God that didn’t happen.

My husband isn’t a local. Coming from small town, that’s a big thing. People like to connect the dots of your heritage. To know what kind of stock you come from. It’s true, even today.

So, I met my husband. He was all blonde hair and blue eyes. For some reason, as a teenager, I thought blonde haired people were somehow beyond my reach. My brown hair, brown eyes could only think to compare with others of my same “level” of society. I don’t know why, but I really thought this. When I met my husband and saw him looking at me, well, that was a surprise. lol Even so, he came up to me the next day at the trade school we were in and said, “Hello.” We’ve been together ever since.

We’ve had differences. We look at life really well in the things that matter, our family unit, our belief system, our loving each other. We look at other things completely different. He was “all in” from the start. Me, I needed a little time to adjust.

What I found is a man who loves me for me. He didn’t look at me like the “disabled” child of the family. He didn’t think me incapable of greatness. He was willing to back just about all of my crazy ideas.

I am thankful to God for putting our paths to crossing and him finding me. There is not another in this world who would fit me like he does.

You are Unique and that’s important

I am always advocating for individuals and their uniqueness!! You may be thinking you’re one of many different people who can do whatever it is you do, but the truth is, you’re unique in the way you do what you do. You have a way like no one else does in all that you do, especially the things you’re good at.

Think about this. Your fingerprint is not like anyone else’s. Your handwriting is unique to you. There are people who study and get paid to define handwriting for a living. They can distinctly see what’s different about your personality from the person right next to you, even if you’ve both written the same thing! Fascinating!! It’s the same with clothing. you will always choose something that inspires you maybe yellow, and always avoid some other color, maybe red…so, even in the colors you choose, you’re unique!! I love it!!

I want you to think about your friends or people you know. What do your friends come to you for, all the time? Who do you seek out when you’re looking to accomplish a certain thing, wanting great company, or just have to have that great piece of hummingbird cake so and so makes?

Your uniqueness may be known by lots of people. Your uniqueness may be known by very few. Either way, it’s important to know that it’s an essential part of what makes you shine bright. Whatever it is you do well, there are people out there who seek you. You seek others for their talents. It is the way of connecting with each other.

Think on this. If you already know of your unique talents, great!!! If you don’t think you have any, think on it some. Something is unique to you. 🙂