Make Lists

I want to encourage you to make lists. One set of lists should definitely be for the holidays ahead. Things you really want to accomplish, things that will be okay if they don’t get accomplished, and a reminder of where you stashed all of the holiday gifts. lol

Another set of lists are to make note of something that’s bothering you. I have a situation that’s coming up and some of it bothers me because I thought things would be easier by now with those things or in a better way whereby it would seem I have more of my life all sorted out.

However, that particular situation isn’t that way at all. Some things still aren’t fixed. My life, in general, from the outside, still looks like it’s barely held together by duct tape, and that’s just the nature of things as they go at the moment.

I had to look past the surface of it though. There are good soul things happening in this situation and love, lots of love, between people who care about each other. That will be the theme of the situation.

So, write a list of what troubles you about a situation, then write a list of what’s good in the situation and keep the good list closer to your heart.

I hope you’ve gotten something good out of today’s message. Feel freely to donate to this vibe on my journey to share with you and others, thank you kindly. ( http://paypal.me/aprildaisy )

Just a Person

I had a thought recently that I’d like to share. I had something to work out with a friend and I wanted to figure out how best to handle it. I thought about finding excuses. I thought about lots of different kinds of those excuses. I thought of taking the blame personally. I created different scenarios, of what could be offered, what could not be offered and just how best to handle the situation.

So, I go ahead and choose this tactic I wanted to take. As I converse with this other person, the person says, “Did I do something wrong?” I could have said lots of different things with this opening too. The whole, “If you’d have done this, if you’d have considered that, what about what you saw going on?” I didn’t want to argue or fuss or be talked out of what I’d chosen.

I made my decision somewhat based on interactions with that person. I don’t want to point out what I think are flaws. I don’t want to say, “You did this wrong, but if you do it like this, we can work things out,” or, “You did this wrong and it’s too much.” The person is just the person and pointing out what I think may be flaws may not be flaws with another person. Also, the person in question may not even see one’s own actions as flaws of any sort. Lots of angles to look at this one.

No, I just said, “I’d like to have some space for now.” I didn’t have to explain myself. I didn’t have to have the person or myself feel bad. I just made a call and stuck by it.

We are all “just a person”. When we interact with another person, we are doing an ebb and flow unique to our individuality and connections to one another. The time period and/or depth of that interaction depends on a great many things.

It’s okay to Cry

Some mornings, as I stir my coffee, I ask God what I should write about. It’s always interesting what he says to me.

This morning, I hadn’t asked, but was headed here. I get the notion of, “It’s okay to cry.” So, let us see where this thread goes.

It’s okay to cry. You may say to me, “April, what do I have to cry about?” What about the child you never had because your partner didn’t want children? What about the dream you didn’t pursue because it was different than expected? What about the business you are trying to get flourishing that isn’t doing that well? What about the fact that you left a domestic situation and are even more scared because you aren’t sure how to do things on your own? What about the fact that you lost your parents in some way…death, them shunning you, you joined the military, etc…. ((This is a huge one.))?

What about the fact that you feel you’ve taken a wrong turn somewhere along the way and feel so lost…just…utterly and completely lost? There are lots and lots and LOTS of reasons to cry. I’ve cried over lots of reasons myself.

It’s perfectly okay to cry. We live in a world that tells us to follow the norm, fix what needs to be fixed, and carry on like a good soldier. Lots of people say, “You’ll get past this,” or “It’s better to do the safe thing,” or “There’s no use crying because that’s not going to fix the situation.” What if you just want one day, several hours, maybe even a week to cry and sulk and ponder the crazy of the moment? You can do that. You don’t have to get over it this moment or today or in a month. You can definitely say, “I am hurting because of ……. and I need time to process in m own sad way.”

You don’t even have to tell people about it. You can work through things on your own, make the space and time to be all about you and what you want to cry about or are tired of. You can do whatever it is to say, “I will take a cry day.”

We try. We’re ambitious. We’re smart. We are capable of great things. Yes, to all of this! We also need time to cry. It is okay to do that too.

Praying about a Situation

I had a situation that was troubling me. I felt confrontation of a sort was needed, but I really didn’t want to be in that spot. It involved a friend of some years. I wasn’t sure how to approach it. My usual tactic is to be a complete bitch and expect the ties to be severed.

I wasn’t really in the mood for doing that though. I talked to several people to get their take on it. I also know that the perspective can be skewed because we can present an argument that favors our side. Lots and lots of people do this for a multitude of reasons. Just the other day I said to someone, “Please give me a reason that favors the positive other side.” The person did.

Even so, I kept praying and asking God to tend to this situation. I wanted an answer God would give me and definitely in a way I could live with. Well, this last weekend, a better turn of events happened in this situation. None of it had to do with me being confrontational or even feeling the need to have a conversation either.

The other person did something different and it allowed an ease to come back into the situation. It didn’t resolve the situation to the way I wanted, but I knew that would be a little tricker as the situation really was based on a need…regardless of what ever else I thought about it.

For this moment, I felt God made it go back to some ease. The situation wasn’t resolved, no, but there was no longer a need for conflict just now and I am glad I let God handle it more so than what I had in mind. This gives me more peace about it at the moment.

In another thought, I have pondered many times how God has had us help others even when we don’t have much. Somehow, what we do have…in many different ways…was enough for each person needing it.

A friend stored some items here recently as he found himself quickly needing to move. When he came back to get those items, amid conversations my husband and the friend had, the friend was given some of the items we had stored that weren’t being of any use to us.

It was being helpful in an unexpected way, taking care of some of his needs we found out he had, and allowing for the flow of that instead of holding on to something we weren’t going to use anytime soon.

Also, if we released it, whatever IT is, because it wasn’t being useful to us, we must trust that we will gain back something of equal or better value in that space should we find ourselves in that kind of need in the future. This is a very important part of the trust of the flow of the Divine.