Prayers, what do you pray for?

Sometimes I pray for a nice day. I’m not asking for anything, being needy, or think my world would be so much better “if only”. Sometimes it’s good to be thankful, to ask God for a day of “okay” and appreciate it.

We, a lot of times, overthink our “neediness”. I’m one to do that sometimes. However, by doing so, we frustrate ourselves in the blessings of today. I know I’m like, “God, please…I need this or that and there has to be a solution immediately.” I frustrate myself when I pray like that. It causes me to not enjoy the moment I’m in or maybe appreciate a blessing that’s happening right as I’m working myself into a frenzy of impatience.

Maybe you’ll tell me, but April, “There’s lots in my life that needs fixing.” I will tell you, “There’s lots in my life that needs fixing too. No one’s life will ever be completely 100% right. It isn’t about that. It’s about enjoying what you’re blessed with and living in the moment you’re in.” I assure you, some things that aren’t right will be made right in time, in God’s time. Trust that. Live as though all of your needs are being met, because they are.

Becoming Ordained

I’ve thought many times over the years to become a a preacher of some sort. Not to preach the Bible, but to preach a loving God. I feel completely lost as to how to go about doing that though. I really am not going to carry around a Bible and preach out of that, no. I am at a loss as to how to explain the simpleness of what I’m trying to teach and give to people.

Well, this week I did the official “become ordained” to be legal in the United States. I figure I can at least start there, being mindful of staying within the law. So now, I’m a legally ordained minister. Yay! Where to go from here.

Well, a friend says to me, “What about becoming a High Priestess?” I’m like, “No, that’s too narrow of a title.” I joked that I’d call myself an “Old Crone”. I figured that wouldn’t get me far either. So, this morning I look up pastor, minister, preacher. I find pastor fitting my goals more than anything else. By the dictionary definition it says “a person having spiritual care of a number of persons”. I figure talking to people about God is all about their spiritual raising. That’s care, right?

Where do I go from here, I don’t know. I do know I’ve talked with people about God and seen the look of comfort and relief on their faces when I share all about God loving them, not shaming them. To see their soul settle into that grace they’ve longed for…it’s amazing.

This is what I’d like to spread more of, the love. I do know not everyone will understand the path, not everyone will even seek out such a path, and I’m okay with that. Somehow, somewhere, there are people needing the messages God puts within me to spread. The messages of love and grace and kindness. I’ll sprinkle that.

Life, are you having fun yet?

There are lots and lots of good things going on about one’s life. Lots of blessings happening, things to be thankful for, people to enjoy the life you’re living with. There are also things that frustrate you, break your heart, and make you cry.

Some days you wonder what you’re living for. Some days you’re super thankful you’re alive and living in that exact moment.

I sometimes think if I pray enough or feel strongly enough about something I’ve asked God for, it will have to happen in the way I want it to. Does it? Not really. I always feel God does know best though and there’s a reason one answer to prayer is one way and another is the other way. Even if I consulted with him, he’d say, “Trust me.”

So, I’ve learned not to make rash decisions out of anger or hurt. I’ve learned to totally enjoy the moment I’m in. I’ve learned to love deeper. I’ve known my faith is always…always there…and even if I decide I’m done with my faith and God in a moment of frustration for how things are going…God is patient and loving…waiting for me to work pass that into fully trusting again.

We’re all human. We all think we know best. We DO our best. That’s all we can do. Life’s still, no matter the ups and downs we live, an awesome journey worth living. It is a great day to be alive. Cheers!

Odd Type Signs

Yesterday I had what I call an “odd” or “creepy” type sign. I inquired of my friends and some say they’ve gotten it too. Some also say they’re thankful to NOT get that sign. Funny.

What does that mean? Is it a bad thing? I don’t think it’s a bad thing at all. I think it’s a sign that we really, really must notice for our path. Signs come in all shapes and sizes, from conversations to colors. Sometimes they come in threes, sometimes they repeat many times to bring comfort, and sometimes they come as odd and creepy.

One of my friends asked me, “So what is a creepy sign?” Well, in this particular instance, it was an online message from a friend we choose to have parted ways from many years ago. They were going in certain directions and we were going in others…the paths diverged many years ago. There was no real harm in it, just making different choices.

The fact that the friend messaged me wasn’t really completely odd. Sometimes you may want to inquire of someone you’re thinking about, maybe you want to send condolences, maybe you heard something you feel the need to read out for. There are many reasons for that.

What was the odd thing were the words she’d chosen in that message. You know you talk a certain way with certain friends. Maybe more formal with some friends, more relaxed speaking with others. It’s part of why you like some friends more than others and also the etiquette of being social.

In this particular situation, she’d chosen words we’d never have said to each other at all. Our friendship wasn’t on that kind of “speaking words” level. It was on a level much different. So, the first time I read the message, I thought it was odd. Later in the day, I went back to the message and read it with a more open way of thinking.

On that second reading, I understood it to be a message for me of great significance. It then rang clear as a sign coming in such a way I would notice it. I would also think on it several times too. I didn’t realize it was a message from God the first time. I just thought it was creepy. Funny. Now I know better that God wanted me to clearly notice the message without having to repeat it or send it in a way I may not have noticed. In this situation, I noticed.

Prayer and Peace

Do you pray for answers to certain situations, then don’t have the patience to wait? Do you want a solution right in that instant? Do you think having clues, even ones you may get from a psychic reading or a dear friend, will give you peace of mind?

Even if you have the answers in front of you, knowing which way you’re going, what career you’ll have, where you’ll live next month, etc. You still have to get from here to there. What are you doing with yourself in the meantime? Are you cleaning out what no longer serves you? Are you enjoying the moments you’re living today? Can you be at peace in your life for just a few moments at a time…more so than not?

Seeking answers is all well and good. We ask our friends their opinions, find new knowledge to help us make decisions, and even find quiet moments to pray and listen to God. Whatever it is that will help us, as individuals, find clarity upon our path as we journey through this life.

We must still live that life. Knowing we’ve got a supper date on Friday doesn’t stop the fact that one must cook supper on Tuesday. Having a relaxing Saturday with nothing to do is something awesome to look forward to and a fantastic part of your future reality. Today though, today the grass needs mowing.

This is the ebb and flow of life. What you know, what you decide, what you don’t know, what has to be done in this moment, is all tiny bits of one life. This is why I call life a tapestry lots of times. We are constantly weaving in love, care, comfort, even hurt, tears, loss…all into the life we create for ourselves.

I hope life gives you more peace and you feel your blessings as you’re living them.

Your Core Essence

Who you are, the attitude you’ve always held, is considered your core essence. Usually, if you have a favorite color, this can hint to what area of life your Essence thrives in. Blues are talkers. Yellows are free thinkers. Reds show convictions. Oranges show action. Purple show broad thinkers. Greens are comforters.

What this means, if you believe it or not, is…no matter who you are or what you’ve got going on in your life, you will always be passionate about something, or a talking kind of person, or someone ready to do a hands on project. Etc.

You may be having a hard time and think the circumstances aren’t really right for you to “be you”, but I’ve found that not to be the situation. I think sometimes God thinks I’m capable of way more than I think I am capable of. Many times I think this.

I also remind myself, like yesterday, that I’m still me, no matter what else is going on. I still give care when I see it needed, a kind word, a hug. Even on my rotten days, I’ll do that. Care and comfort are part of who I am. I give fabulous hugs and will always try to encourage where I can. This is a part of my core essence. This is what makes me, well, me.

Maybe you can take some time to see what you see in yourself? Maybe you can take a moment to see what others come to you for? Maybe you can believe in your value, your unique essence, your ability to make a difference? Cheers!!

Old Testament and New Testament

An interesting perspective came to mind just now and I really felt it was a great thought for Easter Sunday. So, here I am, with coffee at 5 am on the Saturday before, writing this, for your reading tomorrow. Enjoy.

Sometimes God shows me perspectives at random moments when I’m more open to messages and not rambling through my own head with whatever comes to mind about my life. This is what happened just now. I woke up, wondered if I should stay up, then wondered what would be a great post for Easter in particular. This is what I got.

What do the Old Testament and the New Testament have in common? Both the people of the old testament and Jesus in the new testament spoke directly to God. They had conversations with God, prayed directly to him, listened to his guidance based on how each of them felt guided.

This is a huge perspective revelation for me. Maybe you’ve noticed it already and think it’s “old news”. lol That’s okay. I’m not an avid Bible reader at all. Growing up Catholic, we really didn’t use Bibles. I’d gone to my grandmother’s Pentecostal church a few times over the years as a child and saw Bibles in everyone’s hands. From time to time, God will send me a Bible verse or passage to add to my knowledge in that area or I will look up specific verses if I’ve come across something I want to learn more about.

So, this morning the revelation of both books showing direct contact with God in the way of connecting with God was a huge insight to me. This point alone should give a perspective shift that causes clarity of such a magnitude as to allow for the possibility of better communication between God and oneself. It’s there. It’s clear. God spoke. People listened, even Jesus.

Here’s another tidbit I want to share with you. It’s something I’ve long believed. Jesus came to teach us how to live that one-on-one faith with God. Jesus didn’t come to die on a cross and save our souls in such a manner. Jesus came to teach us how to REALLY live in FAITH. It’s as simple as that.

If you’d like to deepen your faith or find guidance in your Bible, read the red letters. Read where Jesus spoke…only those passages. Take notes if you’d like. Feel Jesus’ words sinking into your soul, healing the pain and hurt, filling it with love and comfort. It could happen. It could happen to you.

“What goes around, comes around.”

I was doing a small two color reading today and those words came to mind as part of it. As I typed those words, it came to mind that we’re usually telling others that. We usually say something like, “Well, what goes around comes around.”, when speaking about another person. What if those words also meant how we speak about ourselves and our own lives?

What if the notion of speaking of yourself in any way is how you are creating your life? I know I talk about these things, but what about this aspect? We sometimes think we’re not worthy, tell ourselves we messed up, or find some other excuse not to move forward with bravery for our desires/dreams/manifesting in our own lives or some other way of not speaking ourselves in a forward vibe.

Somehow this phrase struck me in a deep way about myself. I must really stop those moments when I think I’m not going to get anywhere in my life or those thoughts that I can’t find the right road or those thoughts that limit my own self by some appearance flaw or shortcoming like thinking my hearing impairment will be a factor in me not getting anywhere. Any of these thoughts…others of the same caliber…however you tell yourself is the reason for not getting forward.

What if you stopped saying that and started saying something different. What if you said, “God can show me how to make a difference in my life and others’ lives being as I am…flaws and all.” Or saying, “There is always potential in every day for opportunities and the upleveling of my life.” Or, “Everyone struggles with something. I won’t speak to myself of what troubles me, but rather to speak of the blessings and possibilities that are at hand at any given moment.”

On this whole planet of people, you’re unique in so many ways, it’s amazing! Own that! Shine in that! Cheers!!

What do you want for your life?

What do you want for your life? What is it that you feel you’re missing? Is it a job you’d be happy at? Is it a relationship that allows you to be yourself in? Is it an honest helping hand with your children? Is it to become famous in an international way? Is it to make just enough money to live a decent life?

We all seek many things. Some of us are happy and content with a daily routine of living. They find peace in the order of their day/week/year. Nothing makes them happier than to know tacos will always be on Tuesday.

Some of us seek more than that. What are we trying to gain? What is it that we think we lack? Do we think “if only” far too often than “I’m so blessed.” ?

I have been searching for just the right way to work for myself for years. I haven’t found it yet. Sometimes, I still keep searching though. I want to make a difference for people and have the flexibility for my children and husband.

If I’m honest with myself, I can say I’ve had that this past year or so. I was able to do what needed to be done, what I wanted to do, and enjoy it for the most part. I did that while working a full-time job.

So, did I get what I wanted? Did I “level up”? In some ways I did. In other ways I didn’t. What I know is that I’m still being true to what I believe about myself and my life through it all. That’s important no matter what.

Looking back now, I would have relaxed more…gone with the flow at opportunities that came my way…found ways to enjoy the moments more instead of getting stressed or looking hard for answers that weren’t ready to come.

Life’s complicated…and simple…all at the same time…..

Faith may get shaken

Some days…your faith will get shaken…keep working your way through that…to the other side…and trust God’s carrying you through. I am super blessed, hit a pothole of sorts today, worked my way through it and it actually came with a breakthrough, yay. I also got a lovely important mail bit for guidance on something else in my life.

It’s okay to cry. It’s okay to doubt from time to time. It’s okay to get angry. Keep moving forward though and the bigger picture works itself out.