God in the Cards — official deck

I created a deck of cards from tarot guidelines to be used as a tool in the aid of intuition in a one-on-one faith with God. The intention is to offer something that wasn’t the Bible, but definitely something tangible to help guide oneself along when needed.

The first deck came in and I love everything about it. I figured I’d like it and that was enough, but the reality is, I super duper love it. It’s all that I imagined and more. It’s vibe is good. The readings are spot on. The encouragement is there in spades. I love them more every single time I use them. They literally are a gentle intuitive tool for “checking in” with your intuition or on your path at some spots to give a perspective outside of oneself.

If you’d like a card read for you, please get with me on my contact page for particulars. I will be giving one card readings for $5 each. You can choose one card just because, one daily, one weekly, one per topic, etc. This is just an amazing experience!

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Soul sucking aspects of your life

I recently read a blog post stating how a woman had a great job, lots of money, was super in charge in the company in a major way. However, the job with lots of money was soul sucking. It didn’t really bring her the joy she thought she’d find. Somehow, she got from there to being very happy in something that rewards her and her clients. I love win-wins!

This notion has stuck with me for several days. I mean, some of us don’t go searching for something new unless we’re needing more of something…money, sex, friendships, faith, etc. The idea that we found something we thought we wanted…it paid well and/or satisfied some aspects of our lives…yet was lacking in good feelings within our soul…well, that just didn’t sit right, did it? Now what?

I think this is me at this moment too. I recently acquired a job, one that pays well, is close to home, and has me responsible for just me. I should be thrilled. In some ways I am, but does it satisfy my soul in any way? Definitely a no.

I come across all of these personality tests and questionnaires about finding your joy, your purpose, your right career. What I get out of that is to do what creates fun for you. Something that is easy for you to do and always lightens your mood. You should be working on an UP and go HIGHER from there. That’s how you know something or someone is right for you.

This can apply to any aspect of your life. Evaluate that job, that relationship, that thing you’re buying. Decide if it’s soul sucking or if it’s really a blessing in your life. You deserve blessings and goodness. It doesn’t matter your age or what you think you can work with…you can work with a great deal. l9

Learning something new, redoing a project

I feel led to write about something that may seem ordinary, it’s the blanket I am currently crocheting. That blanket is a great analogy for several things in life though and here’s how I view it.

A friend commissioned me to crochet a blanket. We discussed what she wanted. In particular, she wanted a design with lots of squares and a certain background color.

I started with the squares and was super excited with how they were turning out. That was a project within itself…squares. I had several piles going. After making each square, I then bordered the squares with the background color. The project still looked like it was going well.

After making most of the squares, I started combining them into the final blanket. I chose the only join I knew how to do. I didn’t care very much for the join, but I had not found another join I liked or felt confident about trying.

Yesterday I looked at that blanket and was just completely unsatisfied with the joining of the squares. It was annoying me that the blanket wouldn’t be laying flat because the join I chose was a ridge type join.

So, I stopped joining and started taking the blanket apart. I thought I would have to take the blanket apart in a way that would have given me more of a project to recreate, but then, thank God after prayers, I remembered I’d crocheted the blanket only in rows one way and it was nothing much to take the blanket apart that way. This was a huge improvement as I only lost a couple of finished squares in that effort and not the huge backward slide I felt I would be doing.

I then went to Youtube and looked up crochet joining squares. One of the videos actually listed the join I was doing. I was glad to find it’s a valid join, but it wasn’t a neat join. In other news, I did come across a project where that join fit nicely and complimented the blanket. That helped me see the join I was doing had value, just not with the project I was doing.

I came across a video that showed a join I figured I could try. I watched the video twice, saw that it would be the perfect join for the square design I had made, and attempted it.

Let me tell you, I was SO happy to see that the new join was bringing the blanket up to a better level of beauty than the first one and my feeling about completing that blanket as an exceptional bit of work was much better than before.

What did that involve? It involved trying what I knew, not being satisfied, ripping out some of the work and time I put into it, and seeking out a solution that simply had to be better for this particular blanket.

I am going to tell you, ripping out a crochet project really isn’t for the faint of heart. Crochet projects take time more than anything. To rip means some of your time is like double gone. However, I just couldn’t look at the blanket and see where it would be extra lovely when finished. Now, because I backtracked some and found a new join technique, I am definitely creating a blanket I know will be extra lovely when finished.

Maybe you are in the same situation with something in your life…maybe a crochet project, maybe a different kind of project, maybe even a relationship. Saying to yourself, “I’ve invested time, money, and feelings into this (especially a relationship), I must not rip it apart,” is just setting yourself up to keep that uneasy feeling within. It’s not thinking of how the unraveling, while upsetting, will help you to find a different way to create or live and make something marvelously lovely in your life.

I want to encourage you with this post. I want to encourage you to rip apart what isn’t really giving you that awesomely good vibe. I want you to seek something else and try it, no matter how different and new it is. I want you to be bold for yourself. I know somewhere in your life you were bold about something. I sometimes remember times when I was bold and it amazes me today that I did those things. Somewhere in your vibe is that boldness. Wear it with all the awesomeness you can hold.

Saying, “You don’t understand.”

Lately, I’ve been saying, “You don’t understand,” before explaining why I made a decision about something. Sometimes I’d then say, “Okay, so you do understand,” then speak more about the topic at hand.

I think that’s a defensive phrase. Maybe the person you’re speaking with does understand, maybe they don’t, that doesn’t change the decision you’re making. The conversation should start with you being firm in your decision and not adding things in that would cause you to start from a defensive spot like the stated phrase.

It’s okay to say, “I’ve been thinking and this isn’t working out for me.” Or, “I’ve made a decision to go this route with my job/career/etc.” Phrases along the lines of being firm in your decisions based on your own thoughts and not starting, adding in, or even ending the conversation with something to feel defensive about. You are the one in charge of your life and can make these decisions. The people you share this information with, maybe someone you’re in a relationship with, may be affected if it’s something along those lines, yes. However, you must always check in on yourself and make decisions accordingly…no matter the area of your life you’re choosing to shift in some way.

Sometimes telling your new story is easy. Sometimes it’s not so easy. Most importantly, it’s YOUR story.

Basket of Love

The other day I was talking with my husband about something that was troubling him in his relationship with a particular person. He’d known this person his whole life and loves her very much. An incident happened last year, whereby he felt misunderstood by this person suddenly. It shook him deeply that this person would think of him for less than the person he is.

Here it is a year later and he’s still having trouble with this. He asked me about my perspective and this is what came to mind.

Say you have a mental basket of sorts for each person in your life, with their name across the front. Over time, this basket gets filled with happiness, love, trust, memories, and all the good things that happen between you. There may be some fussing or disagreements in there too. When you evaluate the contents of that basket, you will see all that love and some of the rubs that happened along the way.

If you happen to get a rub that’s so big, such as this one, you need to measure up the contents of that basket against the incident that happened. You need to see if there is more love, enough love, there to outweigh the incident and let that carry you if that’s what you see. If the incident is too much, if it outweighs that love because it’s just too much of a misunderstanding, then it is time to consider less of that person in your life going forward.

As I spoke this to him, I felt such a profound since of surreal in that moment. I wanted to share it because maybe someone else has to weigh a relationship in their lives and are wondering just how to go about it.